Sophisticated love.

Just got home. Today was busy. I can't find words to describe my day, nor my feelings. I wanna burst out crying, but i can't. I wanna smile like no tomorrow, but i can't. There's not an utter feeling i'm feeling right now, cause i'm really numb from inside out. It's killing me. And i have no idea how to stop it, but see myself change from one to another..

Anyhoo, went Orchard Hotel for high tea with mommy and Pris. It was pretty good, but treating me to buffets like this is a total waste of money, cause we totally do not eat much. All i enjoy is the cakes and deserts, like honestly, but i'll probably do another post on the hotel itself, because it was so ready for easter, it looked so pretty! It looked so much like hotels in America, all ready to celebrate Good Friday and Easter, oh how i miss those days...

"Those moments won't come back any other time...."
-Awkie.

After going through so many things and thinking about it all the time, i realise its so true that people don't cherish what they have till they lose it. Stupid me, i've made this mistake threefuxingtimes, and i have no idea how to prevent it.
Once more, my tears are falling for you..

Anyways, got home around 7, met girlfie around 7.15, studied till like 10plus. We had heart to heart talks, and did some history. She's a pro in that man. First in whole school for history! Haha kudos to her :D
Camwhored a little.

Act cute face lolzxzxz!

Wtf, death stare.

Sad face :(

Normal :D

Received some heartwrenching news, and i'm sorry, i cried. Once again. But it's okay. I guess my life's gonna be going through one of those hell periods again, but i guess i chose it. I chose every route myself, no one to blame. So i needed someone to talk to.
Texted Derick, he just got back from chillen with Ryan so i said i'll go find him. Ended up in Simei around 11, went to get a bunch of junk food. Thanks to Derick, he's damn nice, bought me 10bux worth of things, since i was feeling sad. He reminds me of Ferny... :(
Heart to heart talk till 1.30, cabbed home.
I had enough talking about parents issue, i shall leave them to themselves. Cannot be bothered, i have my own problems to solve than to argue with you. End of story.

Thanks to my Babeh and Derick, for getting me out of the pathetic state, when i need help, my Babeh will help me, and when i need someone to get me out of the shit i'm in, there's Derick. Really, i'm glad to have at least A FEW people whom i can throw my broken heart out to, and they actually bother to fix it, and try to make it as good as new, even though i know there'll definitely be cracks still, as signs of imperfections and heartbreaks in life. But with all the thousand little pieces and the cracks in my heart, i still continue with hoping, cherishing and "loving", if that's what you define love.. I cannot, and i don't wanna move on, cause i really need you, and i still want you in my life..

Everyone says "Promises are meant to be broken" without realising that people actually make it come true, they make promises and it never happens.
There are tons of promises floating in my mind, but the person who made that promise never fulfils it, and never gives me the chance to fulfil my promise. Wtf right. K, well, i'm gonna go sleep soon. Studying tomorrow again. HAVE TO finish history :(
3fuckingessays.
:(

Ciaos!