Rawr for life? Random lolz.
today, went out around 3:30, went to get my game card, John told me to go to Rodeo.
went there, chilled till 5, John wanted to go Daniel's, so he left, and and Akshay split and we went home.
Got home, audi-ed, Akshay wanted me to talk to John.
so i texted him saying we need to talk.
And the topic went from "john doesn't need me in his life" to "me being selfish" to "how we care for each other"
okay maybe i am selfish, but hey, selfish is a human nature. Besides nothing is about me, i'm not being selfish, i'm being painfully honest?
let's see, am i really selfish when i want at least one thing to be about me? like when i come home, to hang out with you, can it not be vice versa? well, apparently, its not.
i'm left with 7weeks here.
I'm trying to make something out of that 7weeks, and instead of doing that, you left just after an hour. and we haven't hung out for lets say 7days .-.
Okay, maybe i am selfish, maybe i do whine and complain a lot, but that's me, if you mind, then i don't know what to say, gtfo? Not really .-.
i've been home for the past week, and i get really stressed when no one spends time with me, okay, are guys really unsensitive?
i'm not just like a normal girl, okay maybe i am, but i know myself clear. i need people to tell me they love me constantly, and whut you're telling me is probably "i don't need you, gtfo of my life"
or probably, i just don't deserve anyone, like i said? i don't know, but in my case, i'm being selfish for a good cause, and come one, really it does no harm.
"Nothing's about me" yes, i want something to be at least about me, not that you love me, or you think about me, or you care about me, i mean something that you DO for me.
i fought with my mum cause of you, i want to come home cause of you, i stopped crazily shopping cause of you too. that's something i do for you. maybe its confusing, i want something to be about me, but like something you do to be about me, for me, cause of me.
One sentence: boys never get whut girls wants, or boys can NEVER give a girl whut the girl wants.
Oh btw, new phone. white iphone 3g S.
Hot mess.
blackberry bold is waiting for me <3
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