Mommy told me something.
"Be back the old you."
Something immediately shot through my mind, "Where's the old me ?"
"Am i happier being the old me ?"
Maybe i am happier being the old me, living the life i used to, and laughing more before.
But then again, there are things lost and things gained.
I am still happy now, at least i have my baby now, at least i can sense my mum's love for me.
I really miss my old laughter though :\
Life in the past is pure innocence.
Life now is pure craziness and wildness.
What would i do when i'm 18 then ?
Sex ? Drugs ?
Maybe.
I've lost my old self, and i can't seem to find her back.
But i guess i'm contented with my new self.
I think my bipolar is coming back.
I got a new mask, a mask that can cover all the scars in a better and less obvious way.
2 comments:
Hey Jerlyn! Omg happen to pass your blog, and the 'old me' thing, I can totally relate at how you feel like you've lost her. People keep saying I'll find her back but I just cant seem to!
Hahah yeah !
Haven't heard from you in a damn long time !
People told me in time to come, i'll get used to it.
Idk why..
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