I'm sure all girls know why, at this time of the day, downing a cup noodle isn't gonna do your body any good.
Why?
Because i'm fucking stressed up and when i'm stressed up, i eat, a lot.
Why?
Too many shit has been happening. Just too many i tell you. So many, that i totally need a break before i breakdown or something.
Because i'm fucking stressed up and when i'm stressed up, i eat, a lot.
Why?
Too many shit has been happening. Just too many i tell you. So many, that i totally need a break before i breakdown or something.
I'm really not in the mood to explain everything on my blog, since i've told somebody, then called somebody to explain, then text somebody about it. Now if i were to type it out, seriously, no thanks.
It's just something no one wants to go through (Unless you wanna go through the heartache of seeing your mum cry...)
Had a nice heart to heart talk with Derick, i ended up like an idiot crying under my void deck. And i was waiting for someone while trying to focus on my poa work, who am i kidding, i didn't even touch my poa work, that certain someone didn't even show up.
I hope i'm not going through another unluckiest, lowest point of my life *crosses finger*
So now i'm munching on a pot of homemade jelly. Wow, how stressed can i get now.
Okay, so i spent half hour eating, and within this half hour, i'm starting to change views. Then again, in life, people face disappointment, if there's no disappointment, it's not life. It's just a matter of how disappointing it is and how many times do you have to face disappointment.
To me, it's a lot of times. I seem to be facing disappointment almost everyday. I thought you would be there, but when i was really helpless and needed someone to be there to talk to me, or at least just to be there with me, i'd be happy. But no, i even told you, yet where were you when i needed you ?
Honestly, i think you know who you are. Ask yourself that, and answer it. You'll find it ridiculous. You're not useless, nope, not useless, your answer is just ridiculous, that's it. Nothing more than that.
Alright, let's not sound so selfish here, maybe you do have your own things to do. Alright.
I asked myself tons of times tonight, "What exactly is running through my head ?!"
"Idk"
Honestly, today is one of those days where i feel really lost, more lost than ever. I really have no idea what the hell is going through my mind. All i know is i really needed you alot, and my insecurity just keeps rushing through my mind. I need a hard knock on my head.
Tonight's gonna be another sleepless night for me.
Maybe i should skip school tomorrow.
1.49am.
It's just something no one wants to go through (Unless you wanna go through the heartache of seeing your mum cry...)
Had a nice heart to heart talk with Derick, i ended up like an idiot crying under my void deck. And i was waiting for someone while trying to focus on my poa work, who am i kidding, i didn't even touch my poa work, that certain someone didn't even show up.
I hope i'm not going through another unluckiest, lowest point of my life *crosses finger*
So now i'm munching on a pot of homemade jelly. Wow, how stressed can i get now.
Okay, so i spent half hour eating, and within this half hour, i'm starting to change views. Then again, in life, people face disappointment, if there's no disappointment, it's not life. It's just a matter of how disappointing it is and how many times do you have to face disappointment.
To me, it's a lot of times. I seem to be facing disappointment almost everyday. I thought you would be there, but when i was really helpless and needed someone to be there to talk to me, or at least just to be there with me, i'd be happy. But no, i even told you, yet where were you when i needed you ?
Honestly, i think you know who you are. Ask yourself that, and answer it. You'll find it ridiculous. You're not useless, nope, not useless, your answer is just ridiculous, that's it. Nothing more than that.
Alright, let's not sound so selfish here, maybe you do have your own things to do. Alright.
I asked myself tons of times tonight, "What exactly is running through my head ?!"
"Idk"
Honestly, today is one of those days where i feel really lost, more lost than ever. I really have no idea what the hell is going through my mind. All i know is i really needed you alot, and my insecurity just keeps rushing through my mind. I need a hard knock on my head.
Tonight's gonna be another sleepless night for me.
Maybe i should skip school tomorrow.
1.49am.
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