Thinking; &thinking.

I'm lost without you baby, where are you?

School life has kinda been hell for me for the past month. People who read my blog actually asked me why are my posts all so emo. Firstly, lame kids troubles. Secondly, relationships.

I'm being nice by not doing anything at all. You have a mouth to complain, and so do i. I choose not to, cause i'm not a little kid, finds pleasure in going around finding trouble and telling my friends about other people. Bottom line is, i have a life, i choose not to waste my time on worthless stuff. You might think you're way above me, but the truth is we're all on equal status, i admit, you do look a little pretty, but that doesn't mean i'm dissing myself.
Would you know if i have suitors? Or do you spend your time poking into my life finding out if got people jio me not. Haha. Ridiculous. All i've got to say.

Secondly, relationship. After all, i still don't understand, but then again, i'm not gonna force anything. After the first time, i just got so used to it, that i don't feel the hurt anymore.

Anyways, today school was okay, as usual. Some kids saying want to whack who whack who ._.
Sure.
Then shit, whatever. Assembly, then slacking after that till 3+. Around 2.30 went to find counsellor, just plopped down and like start pouring everything out.
About the two humans, i'll learn to ignore MORE.
About him, there's one thing that Mdm Yasmin said that made me feel like crying, but i held it back.

"You can still hold on to this special relationship and memories, yet on the other hand, learn to accept and hold on to another relationship."

I find it so true, and i will learn how to, i know it takes time. Maybe it's true that you haven't seriously thought about it, maybe fate just isn't on our side, or maybe we just don't share the same visions. I don't know. Part of my heart, part of my love, will be kept for you.
But at the moment, i'm honestly lost without you.

HOWEVER, Mdm Yasmin did enlighten me, and i feel better now. K, shall blog again soon.
Tired.