School has been kinda hectic, cause i was on mc for a whole of last week. So had a lot to catch up on, like POA and maths, and physics, history and bio!
POA was fine though, like i finally got caught up on it, and Mr Ng praised me just today, how well i understand cause i'm putting in some damn effort! Haha.
Maths, i'm fine with addition and subtraction of matrices, but multiplication kinda killed it, but i guess i'm find with it since Gwen briefly went through it today. I LEFT ALL THE MULTIPLICATION QUESTIONS BLANK ON MY TEST PAPER AND I STILL PASSED! ;claps;
HAHA. Like finally can, for once i pass!
Physics, today got the whole stack of paper on "Reflections", i see alr wanna faint! Damn thick! Like 30pages long! Fucktard ._.
History, i mean the subject's fine, i get most of it, BUT IT'S THE DAMN WRITING THAT SUCKS. Just cause i have a four day weekend, i got 3 essays to write, each must be done with 2 analysis! FUCK BODOH. That's like, 6 analysis and 3 essays needs to be done. FUCK! :(
So nvm, bio, notes are done catching up with, but guess what, copied the damn notes but don't get any shit the teacher said, especially those bio terms!
School's shit.
Friends drama, boys shit. I hate my life.
Yesterday stayed back with babeh, to do my Social Studies and History essay, then babeh played this song, that made me cry. Made me think of him sia, all the promises he made, like i suddenly popped my head down and tears started flowing, but babeh didn't know, i didn't want her to feel sad :(
All the guys are like that, they seem really nice, yet they all turn out to be opposite. Just a little and everything comes crashing down, like rain...
I don't know what i can say about it, but it's just damn stressful. I don't know who exactly do i have feelings for, i don't know when they smile, what exactly does it mean, when our eyes meet, what are you thinking. I don't know anything about you guys CAUSE YOU GUYS WON'T FUXING LET ME IN.
Like really. I am trying, can no one tell...?
I am trying so damn hard, that it's too much for me to take.
Him, Willis, now Khalis? Honestly. Haha. I'm so stupid, that i'm laughing at myself.
But at least, he is not treating me as bad, he still talks to me and not like avoid me, though i have no idea if he knows i still have feelings.
Willis, it was just a one moment thing, and now everything's broken, or at least it seems like it is. Get over it, it's not a big deal, don't make a damn fuss about it, or you're gonna get stuck in this part of you life and never be able to move on, and besides, isn't life all about having fun?
Khalis, it wasn't even anything. It was just a thing i do to almost everyone, hi-ing and bye-ing all the time. Lester went through this, yet i don't see him avoiding me. But like i said, i DO NOT know what you're thinking, so maybe afterall, you're not avoiding me, I DO NOT KNOW :D
"But i wonder if i'll ever meet anyone like you again..."
"Its funny how a person breaks your heart, and you can still love them with all the tiny pieces."
-Stef
"Its funny how a person breaks your heart, and you can still love them with all the tiny pieces."
-Stef
Oh, that was just about guys.
Friends.
I mean, my friends are like lovely, including those guys from above. If taking them out from the drama, they're really chill and like a darling to me, especially Khalis. But, i do not know. Sigh. So physics earlier on made me realise that, most friends are not forever, and right now, there are some people that i love that makes me feel like i'm afraid to lose them. Like forrealz.
:(
To my lovely Hazel,
Don't get too upset k? You have tons of friends out there for you other than "you know who", like me! I'll be here :D But some friends, are meant to be there just for hi and bye, maybe she's one of them? They go as fast as they come, maybe. So don't get too upset about it, cause you'll be the one feeling hell and she'll still be happy, oblivious to all the shit you're going through. So, buck up, you'll get over it, and there'll be people helping you :D Same ole' sentence, I'LL BUY DONUTS FOR YOU K? Haha Donuts! :D
''pretentious people are just like cross-stitches piece, pretty at the front but twisted and messed up at the back"
-Jiaqi.
Damn, i so agree to this. It's true. Sometimes, certain friends are worth you hard work, your tears, your sadness and the effort you put into this friendship.
But for certain friends, it makes your life easier the moment you decide not to care..
And damn, by easy, i mean WAY EASIER.
Friends are like roses, sweet yet you'll always have to beware of their pricks.
So, i shall go start working on my essays and shit so i can enjoy my holidays! Sorry for not uploading many pictures recently, but i'll take pictures tomorrow, probably :D Hopefully.[End of my friendship nonsense]
Next post, shall be another fashion research for my little angelic ahma! Yini :D
Haha, wait for it manzxzx :D
Lastly, this is honestly my blog, and if you're gonna give me dog comments about Willis and Khalis, then fux off. Kthxbai.
Ciao!
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