Sophisticated love.

School has only started for 5 weeks, and i'm totally in love with my classmates.
Actually right, i'm starting to enjoy mother tongue since there's Hazel, Yini and Derick.
Butbut i'm starting to think i've turned a little from bad to worst.
Or i'm just turning out like all my cousins perhaps?
I honestly do not know, but it's totally not like i'm doing something bad outside.
I don't get it.
All the chiding i get, the yellings i get, the negligence i get, and you're expecting me to go home.
Fuck you.
I'd probably have to be retarded to do that.
No one's perfect, there's no one that falls into the cleanest state, the superwoman state.
You can stay angry at me for the whole of 2 years i'm gonna be here, I don't give a shitty fuck anymore.
Whatever.
All i'm hoping is to move outta this place, as soon as possible.
So i don't have to take all of your shit.
My room gets to be as messy as it can be, with my guitar and clothes lying around.
I FUCKING ENJOY THAT.
But unless that happens, anywhere else shall be my home.
Stress is building up =x
School, social, family.
Especially maths.
I totally do not understand what the fuck is going on in maths, and the teacher just wouldn't slow down no matter what.
Yet she gets mad and said we're not paying attention.
SO WHAT IF YOU'RE SMART, NOT EVERYONE IS AS SMART AS YOU. CHEEPOK.
You might think it's fun studying 24/7.
Well, that's you, with no life.
NOT EVERYONE ELSE.
Whatever.

Baby, what has become of us.
Is it still like before, me and you forever, or has it became you and her forever?
Why do i miss you at random moments?
And wish you were here at certain moments?
Dilemma...
You're the sweetest.

Ciao