Sophisticated love.

Haay (:
Okay, yesterday, Saturday, went to Southlake, got some clothes and got homek at 9.
Linsey, John and Tony came over, and we swam till 10.45
John and tony left, linsey chilled till 12.45
Then talked to Aire till 5. Woke up at 9.30 to talk to daddy and went back to sleep..
Hahahha it was amazing! (:
Linsey said i should go out with John, i realized some stuff i shouldn't realize about Jason.
I was disappointed..
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But anyways, today, went swimming at Camden with John, Tony, Akshay and Anish.
Then rodeo park, basketball.
I rode Akshay's bike to WalGreens. I get to feel the feeling of riding bikes around Irving like gangsters and carefree guys who care about nothing.
For once, i felt like i'm in their gang.
Hahahah :D
Kinda talked to Jason. I really have no idea what's going on.
Dear Jason:
I know its my problem, but you smoking, it's not only hurting yourself. You might think it's only hurting yourself, but i'm sorry, it's hurting me more than you think. You don't understand. You don't have the right to ask me not to cry, you don't know what position i'm in right now..Whenever i said i feel insecure, i need your security, not you telling me there's someone else better than you... I don't need to know that, you're not me, you can't assume that, you need to understand that there's something in you that makes you special to me. You got to love yourself if you can ever love me, and if you say you do love me, then please, stop. Because it's hurting me... And i don't want to do something that i don't want to, but i have to in order to save myself. You might not realize, but at times, i really feel that you don't care about me, and right now, i probably lost you to drugs. When you said you're lost me, no you didn't, cause i'm giving you a second chance. But you got to realize that in order to keep something you love, you'll have to sacrifice something else you love. Even though you love pot, it's hurting your body in the long run, and you're losing all your brain cells. I really hope i can change you, or stop you, and if you even mess yourself up, part of it, i know its my fault i can't change you. And if you're just gonna keep doing this to yourself, even if i don't stop myself, someone's gonna stop it for me, and you're gonna lose me. And hopefully, if that's how it's gonna be, hopefully you'll realize what you're doing is wrong. I know, you've lied to me, but right now, i'm ignoring that, i'm giving both me and you another chance. It's your life..
Well, anyways, after talking to Akshay and John about it, walked home, took a shower and had those 90calorie bars.
Really don't feel like eating dinner today...
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I guess life still goes on.