Sophisticated love.

2011-03-05T16:08:00.002+08:00

Fuck la. I'm such a bad girlfriend k .
I pressured you so much that you're avoiding me .
I don't deserve you .
I should've known better this was all just a dream, is was a fantasy that wasn't meant to last .
I did my best to have faith even though i know it was crumbling, i told myself everything will be fine, i chucked away all the negative thoughts .
But you kept planting it continuously, telling me you had no more faith .
I will still stay, you're the one who scarred me, for life .
I loved you, and i will always .
It's obvious, you chose your sis over me .
I chosed you over everything, but what i got in return ?
Was to be replaced .
Fuck .

2010-11-19T03:05:00.002+08:00

I hate how i always feel lonely without you. But it's because you're my world, my everything.
I hate how i always miss you. It makes me feel like i'm such a creeper clinging onto you.
I hate how time passes so slowly without you. It's because i love spending every moment with you.
I hate how i get moodswings without you. Because living without you is torture.
I hate how i always feel like calling you. Because i miss your voice so much .
The only thing i love about me is you .

B (r)

2010-11-10T03:41:00.002+08:00

He may not be my first, but at this point, he's my last and only one. He may not be my past, but currently, he's my present and will be my future.

He means the world to me, i can't even express it. He leaves me speechless.
My love for him is unexplainable, no theory on this earth can explain it.
Boy i miss your kisses.

Halloween 2010.

2010-10-31T23:41:00.001+08:00

Happy Halloween people :D

Love.

2010-10-05T20:18:00.002+08:00

Girl: Tell me how much you love me.
Boy: Look at the sky.
Girl: Stop trying to change the subject !
Boy: Just look !
Girl: You don't love me :(
Boy: Tell me how many stars are there in the sky.
Girl: That's impossible to count.
Boy: So is explaining my love for you.

Awwwwwwwwww so sweet right ! I know ! Hehehe !

BRYAN IS AWESOME!

2010-10-02T17:35:00.003+08:00

HAHAHA!

IM BRYAN, YOUR BABYBOY AND I AM INVADING YOUR BLOG!!

Baby,

I have never ever regretted starting this relationship and knowing you.
You are my motivation for everything I do.
Thanks for being there for me all the time when I needed you.
I am looking forward for another three years, till then , you will officially be my fiance.

I love you.
24072010

Yours Truly,
Bryan Ang

6 weird things i do at home !

2010-09-29T01:43:00.003+08:00

There are days where we get so bored and just stay home and rot and do nothing else. Honestly, i always get those days ever since baby went into ns. Other than unhealthy things, these are the 5 most frequent things i do on the computer.

1. Facebook !

I often check people's profile, poke into people's pictures and one thing i'd definitely do is to click on the links and check out videos ! Baby influenced me since he does that all the time ! Heheheh !

2. Blog !

Blog about the lamest things ever ! Like what i'm doing now ! Hehehe ! I've seen people blog about photoshop fails, apple's website fail, xinmsn fails and all those crap ! Find things to blog about and make things interesting !

3. Youtube !

Youtube songs, any kinds of songs, or like funny videos ! I usually visit youtube to listen songs, or watch pool/snooker videos ! So yeah, personal preference ! Haha :D

4. Twitter !

Tweet about every weird thing you saw, inspiring quotes, emo quotes ! Everything ! Or just stalk people's tweets (I don't really do that ! Don't assume i do just cause i'm able to come up with it ! Muahahah ! )

5. Coin Dozer !

Who knows you might be able to doze out a few thousand coins ?! That's what i always do i swear ! It's just a weird habit/fetish of mine ! Hahaha !

6. Tumblr !

Go look for quotes, read people's tumblr ! It's damn inspiring ! I started this weird thing recently only ! Lots of cute pictures, quotes and everything ! Hehehehe ! I think i'm insane, i even started my own tumblr today ! What a weirdo right . HHAHAHA !

Alright, i think i should head to bed soon ! I'm havin a massive headache ! D:

Honeeeeeyyyyy ~

2010-09-28T16:52:00.005+08:00

Introducing a new member of my family
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Honey !
Hehehehe ! My new pig ! Everyone says it looks like me ttm ! Pigggggggggggg ! Sleeps all the time, laze around, eats all the time, and poop everywhereeeee ! Wtf ttm right ! Hehehe ! But it's damn cute rightttttt !
Retarded just like me ! <:

Got it on Friday, just nice also me and baby's anniversary ! Heheheh ! It shits alot alot ! And it eats like alot, that's far from me ! I don't eat alot ! HAHAHAH !
Anyways, revamped my blog cause i kinda got disgusted by how it looks !
YAYYYY BABY'S BOOKING OUT IN 3MORE DAYS. WOOOOOOOOOOOOT !
I'M SO FUCKING EXCITED (Y)
Alright, ciaooooooo ~

P-U-N-K-E-D

2010-09-21T16:43:00.002+08:00

I miss baby like really badly ! Yes, really badly D: Need to tolerate ! 10more days !
OMG, YESTERDAY BABY PUNKED ME D:
He said he kinda pushed his instructor, that was true, but the me getting punked part was he told me he might get charged, and if light sentence, he'll book out later (Sadddddd D: ) or worst scenario, he'll go into some training, i guess it's something like a jail in army ? Except it's worst than being in jail.
FUCKER SIA !
I was so fucking worried, and i was on the bus, i wanna cry yet i can't, i wanna shout and i can't, it's like the worst feeling, and he did it just to see my reaction. DUMB.

Honestly, i really totally give up on studying. It sucks. I hate it, i used to enjoy it, but Loyang screwed it all up. Whatever.

I miss baby D:

Churppppppppppp !

2010-09-18T18:03:00.004+08:00

Sup humans !
I feel like i'm addicted to staying home now ! I have no idea why ! Haha :D
But my family's out for mexican dinner, and i'm alone at home ! Guess it's time for some cup noodles heehehe !

Anyways ! I got my first churp thingy ! I'm so happy. And since i'm new to it, i have no idea how to do it, but i trieddddd !
I don't even know if i did it right but yeah ! I tried my best hahaha !

1 down, 2 more.

2010-09-18T00:23:00.002+08:00

First week down without my baby .
It's hard, but i'm still trying :D
No, i won't break down, 2 more weeks to go .
Have been damn good for the whole week, finished my work and been to school, home-ed right after school, cut down on cigarettes and paid attention.
Only today was bad, pon PE, got offense slip ._.
Lame, last 3mins of class, then teacher called and scolded us . Retard.
Sua. For that two periods, jalan around school and ate with Ryan, Ali, Rafie and Rinaldi. Haha ! Fun ! :D

Then after school, followed nana to ica to do her ic. Saw Yingjie and Cheeyong there. After that, we train-ed back to pasir ris, went to town park to eat and slack while waiting for Jinghui.
After eating, went to find bingrong, talk awhile, then walked to Hai Sing. We damn cb sia, purposely wait directly outside the school gate ! Haha !

Then jalan-ed around ehub, then decided to head down to safra. Pool-ed an hour, then as we left, at the bus stop waiting for bus, we met this girl with special needs. So we kinda helped her. She needed to take bus38, and there wasn't any there, so we said we'll bring her there.
Pea size-ed brain nana took the fucking wrong bus ! Then we had to reroute to tampines cc, then home-ed.
Was damn tired and shag ! Plus my mood abit shag cause never talk to baby today D:
Then he called, and we chatted and stuff :D

OHOH AND WHAT FUNNY WAS THIS -

Baby: Will you be my fiance ?
Me: Huh ?
Baby: Will you be my fiance ?
Me: Huh ?
Baby: Will you be my fiance ?
Me: Say it again .
Baby: Why ? Are you right by your mom ? I don't want !
Me: Nooooo, i'm not on loudspeaker. Just say ! I like to hear it .
Baby: Will you be my fiance ?
Me: One more time ! Last time please !
Baby: Next time i propose if you like that, i walk away !
Me: Orh, so like that, nvm. Sua. -silents-
Baby: NO LA, NOW CANNOT TAKE JOKE ? Love you la ! Joke only right !
Me: Whatever .
Baby: Love you la !
Me: Ask again.
Baby: Will you be my fiance ?
*After repeating 10more times*
Me: Yes.

HAHAHAA CUTE SIA !
Love my baby ttm :D Hehehe !
Alright, shall go to sleep soon. Not feeling that well. I think i've been missing baby too much D:
Tomorrow still got dinner with some people, and like lots of stuff to settle. Hope i pass through these 2 weeks easier .
Looking forward to 1October !

2010-09-13T03:06:00.003+08:00

Baby, you got me into believing forever all over again.
I don't know if it's a good or bad thing, if it's real or just an illusion. But at this moment, i really wanna keep you by my side forever. I've really enjoyed your company this whole week.
It's been a damn long time since i've used that word. Long time since i've trusted that it exist.
But i'm afraid, afraid that i'll lose you one day. I don't want those days to come back, those days when i keep hoping to hear from you, where i'll cry myself to sleep, when i wish i was dead then living like this.

I don't want to get hurt again.
I don't want to have to shut myself out from everything again.
I don't want to have to build another stronger mask, i don't think i have the ability to.
I don't want to put on another fake smile, a different, stronger front in front of other people.
I don't want you to change your love for me and love someone else.
I don't want to try to spend my time to stop thinking about you.
I don't want you to change your heart.
I don't want you to leave me.
I don't want to lose you.

I don't mind suffering now and hanging on to all these, as long as i don't lose you. I don't want to do everything i can, give up everything i have, and still lose you in the end like all my past relationships. I'll wait for you. I love you.

Fate.

2010-09-12T16:20:00.003+08:00

This week has been a fruitful week for me. Spent every day of my holidays with baby ♥
As for what's gonna happen in the future, it's heartbreaking, but still, no way to escape it.
He's going into army, and won't be able to book out till new year - according to him .
And i, shall be a good girl and focus on my SA2, and wait for him to book out and get out of damn army.

I know it's gonna be a long and hard road, but it don't matter. I'll hang on, and wait for him :D ♥
I've given him a gift, he just needs to find it. And when he finds it, i'll blog about it.

I trust that you won't change your love for me, you won't give up on me, you won't break our love.

U-nique !

2010-09-04T15:46:00.001+08:00

Spent the night over at baby's chalet, it was kinda fun ^^

Screw this shit.

2010-09-03T03:46:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i can't help but think too much.
And what's worst, people around me keep adding in.
Really, i'm breaking down.

Pure happiness.

2010-08-25T04:25:00.007+08:00

Happy Monthsary baby !

Might seem like just a month to other people, but to me, it's hard to even survive a month in a relationship.
All the tiny arguments and fights we've gone through, the sweet happy little moments, late night phone calls and webcammie, meeting ups and just rotting at each other's house, this one month means a lot to me.
At times, you just make me feel like you're really the one for me, maybe it's true, who knows.
But thanks, for all the happiness you've brought me for this one whole month :D
Sometimes i might feel a little insecure, but every girl does, so you'll have to forgive me for that, and i know you will, since you love me oh so much *flicks hair*
HAHAHA.

Anyways, went out with baby today, he came to fetch me from school, cabbed home, then changed and headed down to Vivo.
Got me a really sweet present :D I got him a really sweet gift too, only he knows what it is *winkswinks* :D
Brought him to eat bakut teh. Like honestly, Vivo is damn fucking boring, it's so big that it's boring, and in an anniversary, not many people's in the mood for shopping, it's more about spending time with each other and enjoying the day, so despite all the sales i saw, i didn't really go into any stores. So proud of myself. Teeeeheeeee !

Then went to watch Step Up, it was damn good manzxzxc ! The dancers are really super duper hot ;D Then headed off, got some tutu kueh, then headed to my house, baby came and slacked awhile, then went off to meet his parents.

Thanks baby, for making me feel so loved, for helping me find myself. Now that i've find someone worth being happy for, smiling for, and that's you. At days when i don't see you, i really feel lost, and insecure, but i don't ever doubt your love for me, and i know you don't doubt mine too. There are just so many feelings running through me, so many words to say, but i can't seem to type them out. I've forgot how life was before i met you, and some awesome people in my life, i've lost my old self, but i'm kinda glad, to have found you. I lost my old self in exchange for you, and of course awesome friends, i'm glad, i'm happy with the way it is. Maybe you're the one who can show me forever, just maybe. It's not about where we go, it's about who we're with, at times, i'm just happy that i get to see you regardless of where we're going, even if it's just rotting at home. It's your smile, getting to see your face that warms my heart and give me a sense of direction. Baby, i love you, and it's true :D

4.47am

I still miss you, baby.

2010-08-23T00:59:00.002+08:00

Mommy told me something.
"Be back the old you."

Something immediately shot through my mind, "Where's the old me ?"
"Am i happier being the old me ?"

Maybe i am happier being the old me, living the life i used to, and laughing more before.
But then again, there are things lost and things gained.
I am still happy now, at least i have my baby now, at least i can sense my mum's love for me.
I really miss my old laughter though :\

Life in the past is pure innocence.
Life now is pure craziness and wildness.
What would i do when i'm 18 then ?
Sex ? Drugs ?
Maybe.

I've lost my old self, and i can't seem to find her back.
But i guess i'm contented with my new self.

I think my bipolar is coming back.
I got a new mask, a mask that can cover all the scars in a better and less obvious way.

Darling you give love, a bad name.

2010-08-20T01:59:00.002+08:00

I'm surprised baby's home, like honestly. What a way to start a blog entry. Haha he wants me to blog wholly about him. So i guess i shall try, god knows what time can i end this post heeeeee !

Yawwnnnnnnnnnnnnnnns.

I have no idea how to start this.

Me and baby went to watch Salt though, it was good. Kinda confusing, but you'll get it figured out. Next movie in line: Step Up .
It looks damn good !

OMG I DON'T WANNA GO SCHOOL TOMORROW D:
I shall not wake up for school :D
And i have no idea what to do after school tomorrow.
Sad case.
K, i shall stop blogging now.
:D

2.09am.

Heartaches.

2010-08-19T01:18:00.005+08:00

I'm eating as i'm blogging and i'm feeling guilty as i'm eating.
I'm sure all girls know why, at this time of the day, downing a cup noodle isn't gonna do your body any good.

Why?

Because i'm fucking stressed up and when i'm stressed up, i eat, a lot.

Why?

Too many shit has been happening. Just too many i tell you. So many, that i totally need a break before i breakdown or something.

I'm really not in the mood to explain everything on my blog, since i've told somebody, then called somebody to explain, then text somebody about it. Now if i were to type it out, seriously, no thanks.
It's just something no one wants to go through (Unless you wanna go through the heartache of seeing your mum cry...)

Had a nice heart to heart talk with Derick, i ended up like an idiot crying under my void deck. And i was waiting for someone while trying to focus on my poa work, who am i kidding, i didn't even touch my poa work, that certain someone didn't even show up.
I hope i'm not going through another unluckiest, lowest point of my life *crosses finger*

So now i'm munching on a pot of homemade jelly. Wow, how stressed can i get now.
Okay, so i spent half hour eating, and within this half hour, i'm starting to change views. Then again, in life, people face disappointment, if there's no disappointment, it's not life. It's just a matter of how disappointing it is and how many times do you have to face disappointment.

To me, it's a lot of times. I seem to be facing disappointment almost everyday. I thought you would be there, but when i was really helpless and needed someone to be there to talk to me, or at least just to be there with me, i'd be happy. But no, i even told you, yet where were you when i needed you ?
Honestly, i think you know who you are. Ask yourself that, and answer it. You'll find it ridiculous. You're not useless, nope, not useless, your answer is just ridiculous, that's it. Nothing more than that.
Alright, let's not sound so selfish here, maybe you do have your own things to do. Alright.

I asked myself tons of times tonight, "What exactly is running through my head ?!"
"Idk"
Honestly, today is one of those days where i feel really lost, more lost than ever. I really have no idea what the hell is going through my mind. All i know is i really needed you alot, and my insecurity just keeps rushing through my mind. I need a hard knock on my head.

Tonight's gonna be another sleepless night for me.
Maybe i should skip school tomorrow.
1.49am.

I forgot how life was before, but i don't really wish to remember it yet.

2010-08-18T00:34:00.004+08:00

Hiiiiii peeeeeeeps ! I'm back !
Had a super long weekend ! Okay, not really, but i haven't been going to school alot. Was home for Monday and Tuesday ! :D
Been superrrrr busy ! So haven't been updating this ranting space of mine. But i'm making time to do so cause everyone's been like freaking out on me and asking me why am i not updating my blog. Heeeee i care about my readers ! (Doubt i have any....)

Anyways, weekend was fun. Even though i forgot what i did since my life's been super messed up recently ! I think....
Saturday, dearest cousin came over for mahjong session. Was supposed to last all the way till Sunday, but i crashed at around 2am. Then Sunday, went out with parents to shop, spent 100+ on cotton on stuff ! *grins*
Then bi came to surprised me, supposedly he's in Malaysia, but he came back early for me (or at least that's what he said so...)
Then slacked and stuff, had dinner, then i felt sick, like my throat's been hurting and shit, and i've been getting frequent headaches, so he pei-ed me to see doc, got mc for Monday and Tuesday. He still hou lian pi ask for Wednesday, but i was like nvm. Hahahah !
Then after docs, went with him to get his super-duper late dinner, and went home. Ate and stuff, and we stayed up till 3.30 having heart to heart talk with mummy, 3 of us :D
Then mommy went to sleep, we messed around for awhile till like 6, he crashed, then i crashed. I woke up around 11.30, and he woke up around 12. It's funny how he was sleeping on the floor and he landed on the couch with my legs on his lap and how i went from lying on the couch to sitting on the couch. HAHAH !

Anyways, Monday, didn't do much, went to get my haircut, then to Janna's and study, well our study session always go wrong, we studied and slacked a little. Then went to safra and pooled for an hour, then HSH around 11.

Today, went to Bi's till 3+, then went to Janna's to study, we kinda studied, i finished one of my SS essays and kinda read through my physics even though nothing got into my head. Then around 7.45, we headed down to safra for pool. Left around 9.30. Puff-ed for like 10mins, then HSH around 10.20. Heart to heart talk with mommy till like 11. Then showered and shit, now i'm back online woooooooots ! (Y)
Didn't know my weekend would consist of so many words ! Hahahah !
Alrights, shall stop here, my laptop's kindaa dyingggggg :((((
Will be back sooooon :D

Yours Truly,
Etched in my heart and it'll always be there. 12.47am

NANAPHUA IS DAMN BHB ! :D

2010-08-10T15:33:00.004+08:00

I like how Janna Phua and Bryan Ang is over at my house now .
And its been like over 12hours.
Awesome shit ! :D
I love them sooo much. Especially JANNAPHUAJIEYA!:D:D:D Shes awesomeeeee^^
We are waiting for our mac delivery! Hungry hungry! Its out breakfast slash lunch = BRUNCH!
KK! I will be back!^^
NANAPHUA AWESOMEEEEEEE!:D:D:D:D:D:D
BYE!!!

When it stopped beating.

2010-08-04T21:45:00.003+08:00

Went to school with headache and bad cramps.
Baby also sick, flu :( Texted baby till 8plus, then went to class. Had physics, i finished all my work. Good girl :D
Then Shaheeda never come, so called mummy come fetch me from school. HSH at 11.30, then slept from 12 all the way to 3plus. Shiok.
7Miss calls and 12texts. Rofl. Then baby called around 4plus, then went to work. I went back to sleep, woke up around 5.30

Sianzxzx ! Still wondering if i should go school tomorrow, don't feel like attending 3periods of poa and physics :( Fuck la.
My ribcage is hurting and my cramps are being a bitch .
Btw, the NDP this year seems pretty good, i kinda wanna go watch it :( No tix.
Shall go view fireworks though, most likely going Marina Barrage.
Alrights, laptop's dying, shall end here.

9:54pm.

Yours Truly,
Baby, i miss you.

Love the way it hurts.

2010-08-02T01:05:00.001+08:00

Insecurity is being a bitch.
And turning me into one.
So is jealousy.
♥

What's on the outside might not be on the inside.

2010-07-26T19:34:00.002+08:00

Reblogged via Ninety-nineblackroses
Oh so true. Means so much.

I'm alive ^^

2010-07-26T15:06:00.003+08:00

My blog is so dead ! Have been super busy recently, dealing with lots of shit, balancing my study and personal life.
Today didn't go to school, so decided to just sit down and blog for a full 10mins since i haven't blogged in such a long time .
CA's are coming, have been studying hard for these few weeks. Even though i became a terror over the weekends, staying out late and getting into shit, but at least weekdays, i study, and even started to pass my maths tests ! Muahahaha ! So fucking happy !

Anyways, i'm like multi-tasking ttm :> Listening to youtube on one ear, and on the phone on the other, blogging, msn-ing and facebooking .
I kinda lost the touch for blogging, but i will get it back, i'll blog more often and get the feel back .

Shall end this post with a picture !

"The Socerer's Apprentice"

2010-07-13T15:22:00.005+08:00

Another magical movie brought to you by Disney !

The Socerer's Apprentice .

A little intro to the movie :

Balthazar Blake (NICOLAS CAGE) is a master sorcerer in modern-day Manhattan trying to defend the city from his arch-nemesis, Maxim Horvath (ALFRED MOLINA). Balthazar can’t do it alone, so he recruits Dave Stutler (JAY BARUCHEL), a seemingly average guy who demonstrates hidden potential, as his reluctant protégé. The sorcerer gives his unwilling accomplice a crash course in the art and science of magic, and together, these unlikely partners work to stop the forces of darkness. It’ll take all the courage Dave can muster to survive his training, save the city and get the girl as he becomes THE SORCERER’S APPRENTICE. The screenplay is by Matt Lopez and Doug Miro & Carlo Bernard from a screen story by Matt Lopez and Larry Konner & Mark Rosenthal

The trailer :

Here comes the interesting part !

If i were a socerer's apprentice, what would i use my powers for ?

For people who know me really well might get this question right. But i shall let all of you know, i would definitely wish to have mindreading skills !

Your question will probably be WHY ?!

A close friend's birthday, i don't claim to know him/her that well to know what to get them immediately ! And usually when your friend asks you "What do you want for your birthday ?" Most answers are "Idk" when actually they have tons of stuff they want running through their mind. So with mindreading skills, i'll know what to get them, that they'll use it instead of throwing it aside ! Aha smart right !
For people with crushes, i'm sure you'd like to know what's going through your crush's mind, and with the ability to read minds, what's so tough about getting a boyfriend who loves you !
There are also people who are attached, and have burning questions to ask, but afraid your other half might not tell the truth fearing you'd be angry. (Most common question is "Do you think i'm ugly/fat/not your type) Well, you'd get your answer ^^
Sometimes, you really wonder what's people's first impression of you, or like what's their opinions of this top. Idk if anyone does, but i do ! So this will benefit me ! Hohohohoho !
Lastly, i'll know if people are saying one thing and thinking another !!

Anyways, that's all i can think of ! Hahahah ! Most people would want this for reason 2 ! I know it ! Muahahahah ! ^^

“Catch The Sorcerer’s Apprentice Movie starting from 22^nd July 2010 and join the Walt Disney Studios Singapore official Facebook and Twitter page!”

Threesome !

2010-07-07T01:56:00.008+08:00

Its been a long time since i've blogged ! I'm such a bitch !
Teehee i wish i could blog more too but i'm super busy ! :<
Weekdays are like homework, and sleep ! I don't even have enough time for rest.
Weekends got to focus on getting better at pool and stuff. And like there are so many fleas coming up <:
Super excited, yet super busy ! Alright, at least you people know i'm still alive !
Loves, check out the pictures :D

Will post more ! I promise <:

Zoo is pretty aweshum !

2010-06-29T16:27:00.023+08:00

When was the last time you've been to the zoo ?

Mine was like when i was primary 2 ! That's like eons ago ! And this time i went to the zoo, the moment i got down the cab, i was amazed ! It changed so much ! A humongous change ! Hahah

So anyways, we bought tix and entered ! It was around 2pm.
The moment we got in, there were some parrots mimicking the way humans talk, so i pushed my cousin up to take a picture with them !

Enjoy the pictures !

White tiger :D

Polar bears ! Super cuddly cute !

Oh ! This bunch of rhinos looked like they were ready for a bitch fight anytime ! They were roaring away ! :@

Cheetahs !

This one is really cute ! I could've caught him/her standing on two legs, but these 2indians were blocking me. What a way to be a bully ._.

"I'm da king ! "

Doesn't it look ginormous ?! It looks like a dinosaur !

Cheetah cats or whatever you call them. They're really cute though :D

Fuzzy bear !

Alright ! That's like only half the pictures, all the other pictures were like different types of alligators, and like monkeys and stuff ! Anyways, the zoo was pretty fun ! I'm looking forward to visiting the Night Safari !
The whole zoo was like a 5 hours walk, and we still missed out on some stuff ! Imagine how big it is ! Oh dear !
Alright, getting off ! Super tired ):

Yours Truly,
5pm

That gives you the rights to insult me... Right....

2010-06-29T01:20:00.005+08:00

I really do not wanna act all bitchy and blog about the crappy things people comment on me just cause i was once living in America.

First day in school was alright, beginning of the day was pretty alright. Nothing went wrong, chatted with teachers and stuff. I was sleeping like half the time because of the soccer match the night before.

Anyways, back to the point of this post, so recess time's here.
I went to my usual table and lay-ed my head on the table.
So a guy classmate of mine was sitting the next table, and he turned over and said "Hey yankee."
At first i ignored it, not knowing what it means. So i looked at him with a stoned face.
And he asked me if i knew what does yankee means.
Not knowing, i shooked my head. He then said "Yankee's a rude way of calling someone who came from America."

Although i'm not of American origin, but still, it pissed me off.
It might not mean something rude in the dictionary, but the moment he was calling me it, he meant it as an insult.

Alright, i i tried to ignore it, then he went on to talk about how Americans are like slow and stuff. And how they have bad singers and all these shit. These are the kind of people who made the earth a worse place to live in ...

Firstly, maybe you're just jealous about people who got the chance to live in America. I'm sorry but that doesn't give you the rights to insult me nor fellow Americans.

Secondly, even if you're not jealous, i don't think it's necessary to say it out that you don't like Americans or whatsoever.

Thirdly, so what if they have bad singers like Soulja Boy and Black Eyed Peas. Just cause you don't like pop or rap doesn't mean they're bad singers. Opinions differ. EVEN IF THEY'RE BAD (Not that they are), they still made it. What have you got to say now ?

Lastly, don't go around calling people douchebag or nigger or yankee. This is singapore, trying to act american and calling people names will just make you look retarded. (This is what i learnt from people who gave me weird looks when i dressed all american-ish.)

Then again, i said opinions differ. So readers might not agree with me, this is plainly how i feel and what pisses me off.

Yours Truly,
It all depends on how you think

School blueeees ! D:

2010-06-26T02:54:00.003+08:00

One night, the moon said to me, 'If he makes you cry, why don't you leave him?' I replied 'Moon, would you ever leave your sky?'

Got back from pooling, shall do a short update first before i go to sleep .
School is starting in 2days, tomorrow going to zoo with sister for her birthday :D (So sweet right :D)
Sunday, hopefully gonna go get a haircut, since my hair is like screwed. Then school starts on monday -Sigh-
School blues.

Anyways, got lots of things to blog about....
Just too little time !!

Birthday
Tomorrow's zoo trip
POCC
And many more overdued ones.

Alrights ! Shall go shower now :D

Yours Truly,
You're part of my memory now, cause i've met many better

I'm not dead.....

2010-06-24T04:44:00.003+08:00

It's been a long time since i blogged ):
I need more time ! 24 hours is not enough, a month of holidays are not enough.
Secondary school life sucks ! Sooooo hectic ): I wish i could blog more ! D:
Anyways, once i get back to my normal schedule, i'll finish up on the overdue posts, like my birthday ._.
And i'm thinking of revamping my blog. Hm, i think i should :D

Yours Truly,
4.48am

I love birthday wishes :D

2010-06-20T21:57:00.003+08:00

Thanks for the wishes guys.

Sms

Zhi Hui
Jason
Jing Hui
Jeffrey
Marrissa
Janna
June
Jie Yan
Zhi Jian
Calista
Sean ahpek
Willie
Chi Yue
Karen

Facebook

Kyra
Sheralyn
Yini
Filzah (?)
Ryan Foo
Yiting
Ben
Mira
Weiyi
Janine
Shu Wei
Jolene
Delsar
Peiling
Desiree
Asri
Pearl
Derick
Nicholas
Joel
Cheryl
Chris
Fatirah
Shaun
Vili
Jeremy
Vivian
Shirley Wong
Shannon Chew
Randy
Glenn
Cliff
Daryl (?)
Leon
Sharlynn
Dorothy
Mishy
Aviyanca
Woo Jia Min
Sinni
Nobie

Thats quite a long list ! But thanks anyways ! Totally appreciate it ! :D
Keep the wishes coming ! :D

I only wanna say.......

2010-06-19T00:40:00.002+08:00

FML.

Thanks for throwing it in my face 2010, i officially hate it.
Thanks for making me cry so many times 2010, i appreciate it.
Thanks for making me hate my life so many times in 2010, it sucks.
Thanks for giving me wonderful people yet taking it away 2010, you deserve to die.
Lastly, thanks for torturing me ttm, i'm really hurt and suffering now.

Thanks.

Friends are indeed super rare !

2010-06-14T23:37:00.003+08:00

I'm not sure if i should say 2010 is a terrible year or an amazing year.
But one thing for sure, is in 2010, i've loJst alot of precious things.
Starting from clothes to friends, you name it, i've lost it ):

Somehow, Marrissa seems to be always the one cheering me up. Maybe cause she's plain smart.
I was talking to her on msn, and she told me she has this army friend, and he's an introvert, he doesn't have any friends.
So they were overseas training for the last few months before ORD-ing. As he was returning from Vietnam, he called his parents who were at San Fran at that point of time.
He said "Hey guys, i'm safe and retuning home soon." They were all super happy, but he added behind "But i have a favor to ask for."
He continued,
"I have a friend i like to bring home, but there's something you should know. He lost an arm and leg as he stepped on land mine. And now he has nowhere to go, so i want him to come live with us."
His parents were in fact happy he found a true friend, and he proved himeself to be a good friend.

Marrissa then said friends come in quality, not quantity, you might lose all your friends, but you'll gain a true friend amongst all these.
I then ask her if she'll adopt me if i lost an arm and leg ;)

*touchwood* Choy choy !

Everyone is special.

2010-06-13T19:06:00.002+08:00

In a seminar, the speaker started off by holding up a 20bux, and he asked who would like the 20bux. Hands started going up.
He said he will give this 20bux to someone, but he wants to do an experiment first.
He then crumpled it, and asked who still wants it, hands stayed in the air.
He then dropped the 20bill onto the ground and started to grind it into the floor with his shoes.
He picked up the now dirty and crumpled bill and asked who still wants it .
None of them put down their hands.
He then proceeded to say "No matter what i did to the money, you still wanted it because it did not decrease in the value."
"Many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt by the decisions we make and the circumstances that come out way. We feel as though we are worthless. But no matter what has happened or what will happen, you will never lose your value. Dirty or clean, crumpled or finely creased, you are still priceless to those who do love you. The worth of our lives comes not in what we do or who we know, but by who we are and whose we are. Everyone is special. "

- Told by Marrissa

THE NEXT BIG SUCCESS !

2010-06-12T16:50:00.006+08:00

So recently, lots of movies have been coming out !
And lots of them on my list, like Karate Kid !
ANYWAYS, TODAY, IT'S ALL ABOUT TOY STORY 3 !
Remember the good ole times with Buzz and the little cowgirl (I have no idea whats her name xD )

Anyways ! Wanna know whos my favorite character ?!
Its peas in a pod !

Peas-in-a-Pod will quickly become a parent’s favorite on-the-go toy. The soft, plush pod secures the happy peas inside with a durable metal zipper, making it perfect for the car or stroller. The Peas-in-a-Pod plush toy also develops fine motor skills by catering to a child’s natural grab instinct. Pulling the three peas out of the pod will provide repeated enjoyment for infants and toddlers, and soon they’ll learn to put them back in! Machine washable. Not for human consumption.

ARENT THEY ALL OHSOCUTE ?!

And of course, my favorite part of the trailer !

It's hilarious ! JUST GOTTA CATCH IT MANZXZX !

Be prepared for the trailer ! :D

In the third instalment, Andy is preparing to depart for college, leaving his loyal toys troubled about their uncertain future. Lee Unkrich (co-director of “Toy Story 2” and “Finding Nemo”) directs this highly anticipated film, and Michael Amdt, the Academy Award-winning screenwriter of “Little Miss Sunshine,” brings his unique talents and comedic sensibilities to the proceedings.

“Catch Toy Story 3 Movie starting from 17^th June 2010 and join the official Facebook and Twitter page!”

Short update !

2010-06-11T14:41:00.003+08:00

9 MORE DAYS TO MY BIRTHDAY, AND I'M EXCITED.
I can go back to Parkway and throw it in her face that i'm 16 \m/
I'm getting some new oakley shades from momma.
Babeh said she'll make me feel like a princess o___o
I'm going to watch karate kid with Janna !
Yesterday pooling was fun ^^
I'm gonna go get ready !

I'm back ! Woooots !

2010-06-09T17:25:00.003+08:00

So here i am, back from Bali and remaking my blog.
I think it looks fine, except i couldn't seperate the header from the posts.
Ps: That's my i hate Minima .__.

But anyways, i've been messing with my posting area for a long time, and it was like screwed up, hence i locked my blog and fixed it.
All thanks to this dude, or i would've taken longer :(

Anyways, i'm tanned, like really tanned. And i kinda got sunburnt.
Over at Bali, took 300pictures, so i think if i were to upload all 300, my blog would jam up.
Soooo, i've uploaded into a web album, to view it, click HERE (:

:D

Alright, i think i shall stop blogging here.
Sorry for lack of updates !
: My helix is hurting like a bitch, and it's fucking swollen .__.

Truly,
Jerlyn.

Since you been gone..

Whatever dude.

2010-05-31T22:57:00.006+08:00

Hmm, you think i don't understand. Maybe i don't. Am i supposed to read your mind, why don't you explain. And i mean explain, like not giving excuses.And since when did i tell others ? Hm, so i can't tell my mum ? Or am i not supposed to have other friends whom i can heart to heart talk with ? Haha. I see i see. Sometimes, I just don't have the heart to tell people to change. IMHO, i think i befriend with people for who they are. I don't expect someone to change for me. Everytime i asked you out, you'd tell me you cannot go out. Nvm, that's not flying me airplane, but the thing that pisses me off is you tell me you cannot go out, yet when i text you, you're outside with someone else, oh so that makes me feel really good ? So don't even tell me about the way i reply.
Anyways, it's damn sickening to keep this argument going..
So, i'm sorry.

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Hippo Ride + Universal Studios + Everything about Mexico and Mexicans are awesome.

2010-05-31T00:02:00.041+08:00

Pictures: 39/139
So i have 100 pictures that are either candid or unglam. Heee :|
Anyways, Saturday was a super long and tiring day ! The night before, i slept at 3am, and woke up at 8.30 to get ready, bfast at Bedok market with family and left for Sentosa at 10.15
Reached Sentosa at 10.45 :)
So we went looking for the booth to get tickets and stuff, and by 10.15, we're up on the bus, all ready to go (:

Enjoy the pictures :D

Dad and sister wanted a picture "with" the flyer. Well, the bus didn't slow down nor stop, so it was hard exactly take a picture with the flyer.

Family picture, without me and Keiko :( Haha i'm happy enough to be the photographer of the day :D Three buildings behind are the Sands Resort.

Posted this picture just to see my cousin's face. Super hilarious !

My mommas liked this picture :D I think it's cute too heh !

After the ride, we were satisfied :D
That's all for the Hippo ride. HOWEVER; that's not all. It was only 12, definitely need more fun to spice up the day ;_;

So we drived to Universal Studios :)
The moment we got out the escalator, we saw Hersheys. I squealed !
Cause i knew inside Hersheys, there are Reeses cups. I swear, it was literally my happiest day, you'll find out why later :)
Anyways, pictures :)

I was really grumpy at this point of time. Cause there were some weirdos that probably came from Iraq or whoknowswhere, but we were trying to get pictures, and they just wouldn't get the fuck out of my way. I mean it's impossible to NOT see such a big camera ;_; Fucktards. I swear, if that wasn't Universal Studios, i would've like yelled at them.
Sweetnibblets ._. Just talking about it makes me mad.

OMFG ! REESES CUPS ! And one of those things cost 10bux per cup ! We got the king sized ones, and it's 25bux for 2 of them. Haha.

My pop's just weird. Plain weird.

HEEEEE HERSHEYS.

OMFG OMFG ! IT'S CHILIS ! I'M NOT FUCKING KIDDING. AND IT SELLS MEXICAN FOOD !

Credits to me ! :D

My sis's food ! Nomnom !

Pops sure enjoyed his pork ribs. They were delicious.

Mommas enjoyed her shrimp thingy too ! It was yummy too, but wasn't as yummy as mine either ! Muahaha :D

MINEEEEEE ! CHICKEN TORTILLAS (L)
Let me tell you, it's awesome ! After 8months of not touching Mexican food, i'm super duper hyper that day ! And of course happy ! Even though i'm still dying from my Enchiladas craving-ness !

Nachos ! Yum :D

The table was so filled ! Anyways, after lunch, we walked out and saw MR HERSHEYS ! WOOOOOTS !

THEY'RE SOOOOO CUTE :D

Adam and Eve :)
Cousin posing C=
Candid C=

Well, it was already 5+, and i was so tired i took a nap there ! Haha HSH around 6.15.
Changed, charged my cellular, and left to meet Janna for mac.
Slacked, talked, eat C=
Then went to Pasir Ris around 8.15.
Pierced my helix C= Super happy now :)
Slacked at mac again, got some yogurt. Yumyum, then HSH at 11+

Looking forward to:
Pooling with Derick tomorrow, and of course longjohnsilvers :D
Swimming with ChineseCo.
Bali :)))))
Birthday !
And random outings with people randomly !
Shall go to sleep now C=

Truly,
Jerlyn.

You're perfect; yet too perfect for me... 1:37am

Because of you ♥

2010-05-30T01:28:00.002+08:00

This song so conveys my feelings right now.
Exactly, the same .
♥

Truly,
Jerlyn.

So you think Mount Faber is awesome ? My new DSLR is awesomer !

2010-05-29T01:50:00.009+08:00

I'm supposed to be sleeping, but i know i need to be updating ! And since i promised to blog with pictures once i get my DSLR, here i am, with pictures (plus i don't wanna be adding to me -need to blog- pile ! ) Haha ^^
So today, went to safra for lunch, was supposed to pool with parents, but it was full ! So we setted off for Mount Faber !

Shall start off with ONE, just one scenery picture ! Haha !

My cousin ! I love this picture of her ! So cute ^^
I'm getting imaginary !
Scenario 1 :
Me: -snaps- !
Cousin: Wtf is this freak doing with the super swee DSLR ?!

HAHAHA SO IMAGINATIVE RIGHT !

Scenario 2:
Me: -Fishes out cam-
Cousin: Wah, such a swee camera ! Shit, she's gna take a picture ! Shall act innocent -ACT BLUR- !

Anyways, moving on, or i'll never be going to bed !

My fat daddy ! He's super excited ! Idk why. Maybe cause my new cam can zoom all the way till Jurong. HAHAHAHA. BHB !
My sister was super scared to stand on the merlion cause there were tiny ants on there, so i took a pretty long time convincing her up there ! Hahaha !

Look who's at the mouth of the Merlion !
Ohmygosh, epic fail ! She didn't manage to sit up there in the end, she was scared ._. Doesn't take after me at all ! Tsktsk ! If i could still fit or was still a baby, i'd be hanging there already ! HAHAHA !
So it took me onehalfhour for this blog post.
Why ?
There were too many damn distractions ! I was msn-ing, jamming to 106.1, texting and facebooking !
All the multi-tasking is making me spend more time doing things that don't require that much time ! Not to forget all the plurking, tweeting and googling ! Zzzzzzzz ._.
And i'm supposed to get up at 8:30 to prepare for the family day stuff at Sentosa and the Hippo ride !
Btw, huge thanks to Nuffnang !

I ♥ Nuffnang !

Tomorrow will be a heck of a day, a fun day ♥ !
My mommy's just afraid that the Hippo tour will be too crowded, and we all know she can't stand crowd, she'll faint, even worst if it's stuffy ! Sigh . -Praypraypray- !

I miss my long nails :( Mom just cut my nails cause my trial lenses are here, and i had a hard time taking them out + i scratched my lens. So she told me to cut it. Sigh. So freaking miss my long nails ! Now i'm getting so many typos typing on my berry with my super short thumbnail + it just looks ugly ! :(((((

Anyways, i'm looking forward to many many thing !
Pool with Derick, swimming with ChineseCo. , Bali, birthday, meetup w/ xiaocute (?), and most of all, PINKY'S ARRIVAL !!! WOOOOOOOOOT :D
She's coming in June, and hopefully Fernando (?)
HAPPINESS RATING: 400/100 ! (Copyrighted from Asri ! )

Recently, got into an argument with someone. Don't know how i'm supposed to explain. But if you've been stood up, you'd probably feel for me, like it's 3times more frustrating, since she stood me up more than 3times.. But guess what, i cannot be bothered. I don't get why i always have to care for your feelings and not say things to hurt you when you're not sensitive to me even though i consider your feelings. I'm a girl too. We're not in a lesbo relationship when i'm the guy and i don't ever get hurt. Seriously, i have feelings too, i'm goddang sensitive too. I have fucking feelings too. I guess that's why i have no friends (?) Oh well, no one is indispensable. Just totally looking forward to going back to States. K. I'm done. I'm out of words currently since i've already told everything to my mommy.

Truly,
Jerlyn.

Another awesome pledge to keep our family together !

2010-05-25T02:29:00.003+08:00

So, in addition to the family pledge, there's another contest.

" simply blog another entry of a pledge from one other family member "

Awesome !

My mummy  has pledge that we will have a picnic once a month ! 

In order to honour that pledge, we WILL have a picnic once a month ! Hohoh ! Excited !

Some girls have all the juicy !

2010-05-24T03:07:00.008+08:00

Omg, i'm losing readers ! Now i feel so bad for neglecting my blog for so long ! Sorry tons :(
I realized i've been spending too much time with Jeffrey, and that's why i have nothing to blog about for so long :(
So today, i went out with my daddy ! Went Orchard to shop, but somehow, i have no idea whats wrong but i wasn't able to buy anything except for 2 cotton-on shorts and a new awesome juicy wallet !
Everything i tried on just doesnt fit or just isnt nice ! I went into Zara, there wasnt anything nice, went into F21, couldnt find anything either ! I am so disappointed by this season :((((

But anyways, i'm so awed by my new wallet ! I always walk in Juicy Couture, look and stare, and walk out empty handed. For once, i walked out with a Juicy bag in my hands ! Awesome huh (: I wanna work in Juicy in future, like before i achieve what i wanna do. The shirts they received for working there, it's like awesome ! You get sponsored clothes for working there, like amazing or what ? Don't have to buy them ! Haha.
Some pictures of how my wallet looks like !

Cute ? Well, i think it is ! (: I love leopard prints, they're plain awesome !
Sigh, still can't get over the fact that i walked from 313 to Orchard Central, to Wisma and the Ngee ann, and i only got so little ! Crapmuffinsohmygoshthissucks ! :(

I realised my dad's really uncouth ! So first we went into Zara.
-Phone rings-
Dad: Hello.
Other party: hiokfihosnfkios dots .
Dad: Wa to Orchard . (In hokkien)
Other party: (I'm guessing he asked with who. )
Dad: WA EH ZHABOR PENGYOU LA!
Me: -STARES IN HORROR- SHHHHH !
Dad: BO LA, ZHA BOR KIA LA.
Me: Walks away ...
-Hangs up the phone-

Another scenario.
Walked into Gucci .
-Phone rings-
Dad: Hello.
Other party: somethingsomethingsomething .
Dad: Simi insurance ?!
Other party: somethingsomethingsomething .
Dad: WA PANG DIANG WEY LIAO HOR.
Me: Eh, ke yi xiao sheng yi dian mah ?!
Dad: Ni jiang xiao, xu yao gucci meh ?
Me: -facepalms- Update yi xia leh ! Xian zai hen duo xiao hai zi na gucci and lv okay.
Dad: -Trys to say something-
Me: -Walks out to save us from more embarrassment ! -

I don't blame him ! My mum bought him all his branded stuff, so after they divorced, he's clueless about the trend, no biggie (: JUST DOTS !
So anws, went to eat at Din Tai Fung, then went to see some DSLR at Sony. They were awesome and he was so gonna get me one if my damn grandaunt didn't have a friend who have a camera shop ! Butbut, at least he's gonna go check it out, and POSSIBLY buy one for me.
*Crosses fingers and pray*
PRAYPRAYPRAY ! OHMYGOSH !

HSH around 5, then slacked around awhile and off to DTE to meet Benjamin's mom.
Dinnered, then went for some bubble tea. Could've stick-ed around longer, but my headache is killing me ! And it still is, but better than few hours ago. I could've totally barfed in public if we stayed there longer ! But anyways, i ought to go to sleep soon !

Oh dear belly, when are you gonna heal ? Please heal quick, please do ! *Crosses fingers and pray again ! * You know i love you oh so much, as much as i love him, don't you love me ? Sigh.

NIGHTPEOPLEZXZXZXXZZX ! ☺
Ps: I'm kinda starting to love my dad.

Johnson is love !

2010-05-22T01:57:00.002+08:00

June Holidays in a week !
Summer in 5 more days !
One more month (+) to Pinky's arrival, and possibly Fernando? (Y)
I'm super excited !
Thursday, schooled, argued with some teachers, had fun !
I have a feeling you're in love with me !
Anws, home, then out with Niki, Kaizhi and Yiting .
Shopped around, got something from Zara :D
Dinnered at Cineleisure ! Awesome manzxzx !
Skipped school today, just slacked at home.
Btw, I love Christofer Drew Ingle and Johnson ! (L)

Who's awesome ?! JUSTIN BIEBER !!!! WOOOOOOT !

2010-05-16T17:47:00.002+08:00

His dance with Usher was so awesome ! And him sliding to Ellen, that was just plain adorable !
All those who said his gay, fug you and you're gay. You say that cause you're jealous of his adorable-ness and talent !
WOOOOOOOOOOT !

Girl got assualted?

2010-05-12T21:55:00.001+08:00

If you guys never read the news, this girl from Siglap got abused.
And honestly, i feel sorry for the girl !
I would be so damn embarrassed to even go out and face the world. Ohgosh, what would happen if the girl decided that she cannot face the humiliation and kill herself.
And her friend in the lift was encouraging it .__.
Inhumane, no offence ~

View the video here ~

Vlog vlog vlog !

2010-05-11T00:15:00.004+08:00

I know it's retarded, but hey, there's always a first time !
My second vlog will be better ~

Family Pledge Movement

2010-05-09T02:30:00.005+08:00

Too many overdue posts! Too much stress!
Okay, not really, i'm putting too much stress on myself, that's it.

I shall blog about the Singapore Family Pledge Movement first (:

"I pledge to show more love and care to my family members!"

In order to honour that pledge, I'll attend more of family dinners and outings, and spend more time with them at home.
Talk to them more, and understand them better~

I know i can do it~ :D

NATIONAL FAMILY CELEBRATIONS 2010 (NFC 2010)

Organised by the National Family Council, National Family Celebrations is an annual event which celebrates and reinforces the importance of families and family life. This year, Singaporeans are encouraged to make a personal commitment to their families by being a part of the Singapore Family Pledge Movement.

To provide opportunities for Singaporeans to follow through on the pledges to their families, there are a myriad of activities under the NFC 2010 calendar – which will interest the young, the old, and everyone in between! NFC 2010 will be held from 25 May to 26 June 2010, and this year marks the 25^th Anniversary of the Celebrations. For more information on NFC 2010, visit www.nfc.sg

Spread the love people~

When i see you, everything flows back.

2010-05-04T21:58:00.003+08:00

After seeing you, i'm sure my feelings are regrettable, but then again, i have to move on..
If you're finding chance to push me away, here i am, away from you, leaning towards someone else.

:D

PS: Good luck for those who are having their exams!

Living life the simple way.

2010-05-04T00:13:00.003+08:00

Been home sick these few days.
Flu and major headache have been stopping me from travelling long distances, I've only been slacking with some friends under void decks. Worst still, there's school tomorrow and exams on Wednesday.

Saturday, I stayed home all day watched tv. Hong kong movies keeps me entertained! I don't even feel bored ^^ then at night msn-ed and all, pretty chill. Msn-ed someone till I fell asleep and woke up around 4am to realise my laptop was on and I didn't reply him. Sorry! Haha.
Sunday, was home all day with my super sweet granny, computered and tv-ed. Was good all day, till Jeffrey told me to meet up and slacked. Somemore wanted me to ton all night with him! Crazy, not feeling well still ask me ton, so obviously I turned him down. He got his friend to get some alcohol, downed some, home around 11. Msned a little, then watched 881 with granny and mommy. Slept around 2+.
Monday, woke up with major headache, nose block and irritated throat. But my granny was super awesome! She got me some really effective cough syrup and made me some fruits with sea salt which made my throat so much better! Then she made this luohanguo jello which taste damn awesome! I ate three bowls! And she brewed this cooling tea for me, and some wintermelon soup, my favourite! Teehee 

sometimes, I wish life were as simple as these. I'm happy like that. I feel blissful watching those villagers in my
iPhone app just walking about, living life the simple way. But then again, sometimes I'm glad my life is lived like that, and I'm really glad that there are certain people in my life, and I've been to certain places 

i'll blog about my trip to sands real soon! As soon as I get time to find my camera and it's
USB! :)



Nothing much :(

2010-04-28T21:50:00.003+08:00

School has been usual>boring.
Didnt do anything much, except revision for MYE. Hopefully i will be able to pass my bio and maths -crosses fingers-
Ive actually been studying for biology, good girl right (:
Been going home right after school, then study. This week has been quite good, no harassment nothing, damn chill.
Today social studies tutorial, then home, studied a little social studies notes then went to meet Jeffrey for awhile, havent met up with him for a damn long time!
Still the same pattern, ah beng! Haha. Now not studying somemore, then went to slack under his void deck, we talked about school for while, then talked about his ex, gave me the damn emo face ._.
Then met his friend, they smoked a while then we went to slack under another void deck. Talk a little, then he say go down to town, so i decided to come home, lazy go down, tomorrow exams somemore.
Trained home.
Wish me luck for exams!

Weekends!

2010-04-25T23:30:00.009+08:00

I'm finally blogging! Ive been wondering if i should blog, cause im damn lazy to blog! Stressed, exams are drawing near! :(

I hope to achieve just passing grade, and recently, lots of people have been saying i need more confidence in myself! But anyways,
Friday, went to study at airport with Nana Phua and babeh, then babeh left around 5, we went to meet Yini and Cheryl, since they were at terminal 2 studying too!
Studied till around 7, left, then me and nana went to Tamp to walk around and dinnered, ate subway. Saw a bunch of primary school friends, but they act blur, so i played along ._.

Saturday, met nana around 2, ate lunch first then shopped a bunch! OMG, YOUD NEVER EXPECT ISETAN TO BE AWESOME.
But before talking about how much i love Isetan, we went to eat Long John, and omg, Mac is just a waste of money after eating Long Johns for the first time, Long Johns are cheaper, and kinda nicer!
Met Shannon there btw, he's working there..
Anyways,
Like now, im in love with Isetan after all the loots from there! From the pictures above, i got my cap and jacket there, $60 bux only! Isetan is amazing, amazing, amazing!
Then got my shades from Cotton On, and i got my new schoolbag for only 18bux. Nice catch man!
Haha easily spent 100bux alr! -Xintong- CAUSE ITS MY OWN MONEY! HAHAHA.
Oh well, im contented with the loots! Then went down to temple, and then to East Coast!

Then today, woke up around 12.30, lunch-ed then went down to west area with family to look at houses.
Saw this 3mil semi-d, damn in love with it manzxzx! But its like fucking big! So gotta view others! But saw a few good ones, pretty good day today! No heartaches, nothing. Great. So, school tomorrow, exams next week.
Cheer myself on~
Teehee.
PS: THERE ARE MORE PICTURES THAN THE POSTED ONES. LAZY TO POST ALL =x

Ciaos!

I've learnt to hold on, and move on.

2010-04-22T19:44:00.004+08:00

I do not know if i should describe today as a bad day or good day.
Morning was alright, quite fun. Till CD, i saw a certain someone, then started "emoing". Bad mood and shit.
Recess, Hazel and Willis sure are funny ._.
But they kinda said something that actually made my day (: Then end the day pretty well, got home, but argued with mommy.
Ran to void deck, cried a little, then went to opposite park and sit up on the spiderweb, thought a lot. Like ALOT.
Felt pretty upset. But still went home around 5.30, hungry :(
And now blogging, since Hazel asked me to (: She's blogging too teehee!

Thanks to those guys who made my day, my babeh, Niki, Hazel, Benjamin, Ah Wei, Rinaldi (since he made me laugh) and Pinky.
Probably still have more, but i'm sorry if i left you out, STM. Haha.
But i'm glad to have all these friends around. I might not have gotten over him, i probably won't ever, but i've learnt to hold on to him, yet learn how to move on.
Thanks!

PS: PINKY CALLED ME AND I'M LIKE SUPER HAPPY! HOOOOHOOOOOO!
;loves

Thinking; &thinking.

2010-04-20T22:24:00.004+08:00

I'm lost without you baby, where are you?

School life has kinda been hell for me for the past month. People who read my blog actually asked me why are my posts all so emo. Firstly, lame kids troubles. Secondly, relationships.

I'm being nice by not doing anything at all. You have a mouth to complain, and so do i. I choose not to, cause i'm not a little kid, finds pleasure in going around finding trouble and telling my friends about other people. Bottom line is, i have a life, i choose not to waste my time on worthless stuff. You might think you're way above me, but the truth is we're all on equal status, i admit, you do look a little pretty, but that doesn't mean i'm dissing myself.
Would you know if i have suitors? Or do you spend your time poking into my life finding out if got people jio me not. Haha. Ridiculous. All i've got to say.

Secondly, relationship. After all, i still don't understand, but then again, i'm not gonna force anything. After the first time, i just got so used to it, that i don't feel the hurt anymore.

Anyways, today school was okay, as usual. Some kids saying want to whack who whack who ._.
Sure.
Then shit, whatever. Assembly, then slacking after that till 3+. Around 2.30 went to find counsellor, just plopped down and like start pouring everything out.
About the two humans, i'll learn to ignore MORE.
About him, there's one thing that Mdm Yasmin said that made me feel like crying, but i held it back.

"You can still hold on to this special relationship and memories, yet on the other hand, learn to accept and hold on to another relationship."

I find it so true, and i will learn how to, i know it takes time. Maybe it's true that you haven't seriously thought about it, maybe fate just isn't on our side, or maybe we just don't share the same visions. I don't know. Part of my heart, part of my love, will be kept for you.
But at the moment, i'm honestly lost without you.

HOWEVER, Mdm Yasmin did enlighten me, and i feel better now. K, shall blog again soon.
Tired.

Heartwrenching.

2010-04-18T21:38:00.002+08:00

We talked.
Things aint turning for the better.
Go think about it then.

十年; Ours have been years too.

2010-04-18T14:05:00.002+08:00

~~十年之前~~
三年之前
我不认识你你不属于我
我们还是一样陪在一个陌生人左右
走过渐渐熟悉的街头

~~十年之后~~
三年之后
我们是朋友还可以问候
只是那种温柔再也找不到拥抱的理由
情人最后难免沦为朋友

Sometimes, i wonder.

2010-04-18T01:51:00.004+08:00

Life's perfect like that.
But my life's never gonna be wonderful..
If you ain't giving me another chance...

I know we all make mistakes.
And i made a stupid mistake, which is causing me hell now.
I regret it.
But i'm human, i'm not flawless.
That mistake caused me to be alone now.

"Everyone deserves a second chance,
and i'll give it to anyone out there;
because i, myself need one"

I'm sorry, if that still helps.
Just so you know, you're worth every single beat of my heart.

2010-04-14T21:28:00.001+08:00

Yellow Roses represent apologies.
And yes, its for you.
I'm sorry...

2010-04-13T23:15:00.001+08:00

This goes out to someone that was
Once the most important person in my life
I didn't realize it at the time
I can't forgive myself for the way I treated you so
I don't really expect you to either
It's just... I don't even know
Just listen...

You're the one that I want, the one that I need
The one that I gotta have just to succeed
When I first saw you, I knew it was real
I'm sorry about the pain I made you feel

That wasn't me; let me show you the way
I looked for the sun, but it's raining today
I remember when I first looked into your eyes
It was like God was there, heaven in the skies

I wore a disguise 'cause I didn't want to get hurt
But I didn't know I made everything worse
You told me we were crazy in love
But you didn't care when push came to shove

If you loved me as much as you said you did
Then you wouldn't have hurt me like I ain't shit
Now you pushed me away like you never even knew me
I loved you with my heart, really and truly

I guess you forgot about the times that we shared
When I would run my fingers through your hair
Late nights, just holding you in my arms
I don't know how I could do you so wrong

I really wanna show you I really need to hold you
I really wanna know you like no one else could know you
You're number one, always in my heart
And now I can't believe that our love is torn apart

[Chorus:]
I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you 'cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you [2x]

I knew you gonna sit and play this with your new man
And then sit and laugh as you're holding his hand
The thought of that just shatters my heart
It breaks in my soul and it tears me apart

At times we was off I was scared to show you
Now I wanna hold you until I can't hold you
Without you, everything seems strange
Your name is forever planted in my brain

Damn it, I'm insane,
Take away the pain
Take away the hurt
Baby, we can make it work

What about when you
Looked into my eyes
Told me you loved me
As you would hugged me

I guess everything you said was a lie
I think about it, it brings tears to my eyes
Now I'm not even a thought in your mind
I can see clearly, my love is not blind

[Chorus:]
I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you 'cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you [2x]

[Talking:]
I just wish everything could have turned out differently
I had a special feeling about you
I thought maybe you did too
You would understand, but...
No matter what, you'll always be in my heart
You'll always be my baby

Our first day, it seemed so magical
I remember all the time that I had with you
Remember when you first came to my house?
You looked like an angel wearing that blouse

We hit it off, I knew it was real
But now I can't take all the pain that I feel
Reach in your heart, I know I'm still there
I don't wanna hear that you no longer care

Remember the times? Remember when we kissed?
I didn't think you would ever do me like this
I didn't think you'd wanna see me depressed
I thought you'd be there for me, this I confess

You said you were my best friend, was that a lie?
Now I'm nothing to you, you're with another guy
I tried, I tried, I tried, and I'm trying
Now on the inside it feels like I'm dying

[Chorus:]
I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you 'cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you [2x]

[Talking:]
And I do miss you
I just thought we were meant to be
I guess now, we'll never know

The only thing I want is for you to be happy
Whether it be with me, or without me
I just want you to be happy

Really? Is this true? That someone'd be happy and feel better if the person they love found love and happiness with someone else? It's all a lie, to make yourself look noble. I know i'm not noble. But i'd rather the truth than to act like i'm noble....

2010-04-11T17:04:00.012+08:00

Post-it® “How You Use It”

PS: My camera's not that great, so pardon me.

Introducing, a contest held by the well known post it notes.

A contest is held.
They are looking for

It's my first time taking part in a contest like this btw, and i did spend lots of time on it. Like no shit. But it was worth it, and i had fun in the process of doing it.

"It doesn't matter what the outcome is, cause its the process that counts"

Well, the outcome is important too, but i still enjoyed the process :D

For those who wonder what am i sending in.
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Not that great, but it's simple and sweet, and it has a nice purpose, that brings family closer together.
So why not?

2010-04-11T14:26:00.002+08:00

Reblogged from
http://babylove-eternity.blogspot.com/

Fri, 9/4
-Went out with nehneh.
-Slack at near school with Yanru and vicky.
-Left around 3 plus.
-Collect her phone at simei.
-KFC , Home around 5 plus.

Now, shall dedicate a short post for babeh :
Babeh, i know you've been not in a good mood since he gave me the answer that day. I know you cant forget him but you have to carry on with your life. Dont let him affect you and your studies. Cause he dont even care. I know myself, you can get a better guy than him. You miss him, i understand. I've been through it. But you still have to let go and move on. You want to tiongxim him but there's no use. So what if you tiongxim him? He dont even care. I dont want to see you so sad. I want a happy and crazy babeh. Sorry if i cant cheer you up that much but i really want you to give up on him. To me, he's not worth you. He dont deserve you. Like you said to me before. He dont deserve me. You know which "he". So now i'll tell you this.

Lastly, your babeh want my babeh to cheer up k? Whatever it is, i'll be there for you. Anything just text me k? Loves.

This short post is to this cute little pig :
Thanks for helping me give up on him and i guess i already did. You made me smile when i see you and thanks for everything. Loves.

2010-04-07T21:59:00.002+08:00

To you:
I made you suffer in the past.
I was the one who neglected you in the past.

I was the one who made you life hell in the past.
I was the one you were missing like hell in the past.
And you thought i was just playing with your feelings in the past.

Now you're the one making me suffer.
Now you're the one neglecting me.
Now you're the one making my life hell.
Now you're the one i'm missing like hell.
And now, you make me think too much and make me think like you're just playing with me feelings.

I'd tell you i didn't mean it, cause i realised how important you are to me.
But i doubt you'd believe me,
If i tell you i really need you back, and i didn't mean to hurt you.
You won't believe me.
You won't want me.
Maybe to you, i deserve it.
Is that why you're doing this?
Or is this how you're feeling.
I'd rather you're purposely doing this than really having no feelings towards me.
If it makes you feel better, i'm screwed now, i'm serious.
I feel like my heart's been torn out.
I feel like a zombie, like i have no soul, like nothing's perfect and nothing's complete without you.

But you won't believe me anymore....

2010-04-04T22:11:00.002+08:00

http://jerlynjermaine.livejournal.com/2352.html

2010-04-04T14:14:00.003+08:00

HERE'S HOW MY MEXICAN BEST FRIEND LOOKS LIKE AFTER HE GOT A HAIRCUT.
I think it's pretty cute though.
And i promised him i would blog about it.
So TAAADAAA! It's up :D
Ps: It's gagalicious.

2010-04-03T13:17:00.004+08:00

This is just amazing. Gotta listen to her whistles at the end.

2010-04-02T21:51:00.001+08:00

I NEED A DAMN BREAK.
I BREAKING DOWN EMOTIONALLY.

2010-04-02T18:24:00.005+08:00

Yesterday i went to Orchard Hotel for tea with my mum, and surprisingly, i liked it. I don't whine like i do when i'm at some other hotel. Cause apparently, over there, the food is good, the services are pretty okay, and i just like the way everything was.
Then, i walked out the cafe to find myself facing cute little easter eggs :D
Aren't they just adorable. Cause Easter's round the corner, and Good Friday, also known as Holy Friday is today :D

I'm not feeling very happy, and i don't think i will for a long time. Anyhoos.

Have a Good Friday :D

PS: http://www.formspring.me/itslynbaby Ask me anything.
Ciaos!

2010-04-02T03:07:00.005+08:00

Just got home. Today was busy. I can't find words to describe my day, nor my feelings. I wanna burst out crying, but i can't. I wanna smile like no tomorrow, but i can't. There's not an utter feeling i'm feeling right now, cause i'm really numb from inside out. It's killing me. And i have no idea how to stop it, but see myself change from one to another..

Anyhoo, went Orchard Hotel for high tea with mommy and Pris. It was pretty good, but treating me to buffets like this is a total waste of money, cause we totally do not eat much. All i enjoy is the cakes and deserts, like honestly, but i'll probably do another post on the hotel itself, because it was so ready for easter, it looked so pretty! It looked so much like hotels in America, all ready to celebrate Good Friday and Easter, oh how i miss those days...

"Those moments won't come back any other time...."
-Awkie.

After going through so many things and thinking about it all the time, i realise its so true that people don't cherish what they have till they lose it. Stupid me, i've made this mistake threefuxingtimes, and i have no idea how to prevent it.
Once more, my tears are falling for you..

Anyways, got home around 7, met girlfie around 7.15, studied till like 10plus. We had heart to heart talks, and did some history. She's a pro in that man. First in whole school for history! Haha kudos to her :D
Camwhored a little.

Act cute face lolzxzxz!

Wtf, death stare.

Sad face :(

Normal :D

Received some heartwrenching news, and i'm sorry, i cried. Once again. But it's okay. I guess my life's gonna be going through one of those hell periods again, but i guess i chose it. I chose every route myself, no one to blame. So i needed someone to talk to.
Texted Derick, he just got back from chillen with Ryan so i said i'll go find him. Ended up in Simei around 11, went to get a bunch of junk food. Thanks to Derick, he's damn nice, bought me 10bux worth of things, since i was feeling sad. He reminds me of Ferny... :(
Heart to heart talk till 1.30, cabbed home.
I had enough talking about parents issue, i shall leave them to themselves. Cannot be bothered, i have my own problems to solve than to argue with you. End of story.

Thanks to my Babeh and Derick, for getting me out of the pathetic state, when i need help, my Babeh will help me, and when i need someone to get me out of the shit i'm in, there's Derick. Really, i'm glad to have at least A FEW people whom i can throw my broken heart out to, and they actually bother to fix it, and try to make it as good as new, even though i know there'll definitely be cracks still, as signs of imperfections and heartbreaks in life. But with all the thousand little pieces and the cracks in my heart, i still continue with hoping, cherishing and "loving", if that's what you define love.. I cannot, and i don't wanna move on, cause i really need you, and i still want you in my life..

Everyone says "Promises are meant to be broken" without realising that people actually make it come true, they make promises and it never happens.
There are tons of promises floating in my mind, but the person who made that promise never fulfils it, and never gives me the chance to fulfil my promise. Wtf right. K, well, i'm gonna go sleep soon. Studying tomorrow again. HAVE TO finish history :(
3fuckingessays.
:(

Ciaos!

2010-03-31T20:48:00.001+08:00

OMG I GOOGLED UP POST IT NOTES ON YOUTUBE AND IT GAVE ME ALL SORTS OF AMAZING VIDEOS CREATED BY LIKE ART STUDENTS AND STUFF.
And mine's like chicken, i feel so damn inferior now, my frist piece is a sucky piece.
I'm gonna go cry in a corner ):

2010-03-31T16:39:00.008+08:00

[Pretty long wordy post up here, warning!]

School has been kinda hectic, cause i was on mc for a whole of last week. So had a lot to catch up on, like POA and maths, and physics, history and bio!
POA was fine though, like i finally got caught up on it, and Mr Ng praised me just today, how well i understand cause i'm putting in some damn effort! Haha.
Maths, i'm fine with addition and subtraction of matrices, but multiplication kinda killed it, but i guess i'm find with it since Gwen briefly went through it today. I LEFT ALL THE MULTIPLICATION QUESTIONS BLANK ON MY TEST PAPER AND I STILL PASSED! ;claps;
HAHA. Like finally can, for once i pass!
Physics, today got the whole stack of paper on "Reflections", i see alr wanna faint! Damn thick! Like 30pages long! Fucktard ._.
History, i mean the subject's fine, i get most of it, BUT IT'S THE DAMN WRITING THAT SUCKS. Just cause i have a four day weekend, i got 3 essays to write, each must be done with 2 analysis! FUCK BODOH. That's like, 6 analysis and 3 essays needs to be done. FUCK! :(
So nvm, bio, notes are done catching up with, but guess what, copied the damn notes but don't get any shit the teacher said, especially those bio terms!

School's shit.
Friends drama, boys shit. I hate my life.
Yesterday stayed back with babeh, to do my Social Studies and History essay, then babeh played this song, that made me cry. Made me think of him sia, all the promises he made, like i suddenly popped my head down and tears started flowing, but babeh didn't know, i didn't want her to feel sad :(
All the guys are like that, they seem really nice, yet they all turn out to be opposite. Just a little and everything comes crashing down, like rain...
I don't know what i can say about it, but it's just damn stressful. I don't know who exactly do i have feelings for, i don't know when they smile, what exactly does it mean, when our eyes meet, what are you thinking. I don't know anything about you guys CAUSE YOU GUYS WON'T FUXING LET ME IN.
Like really. I am trying, can no one tell...?
I am trying so damn hard, that it's too much for me to take.
Him, Willis, now Khalis? Honestly. Haha. I'm so stupid, that i'm laughing at myself.
But at least, he is not treating me as bad, he still talks to me and not like avoid me, though i have no idea if he knows i still have feelings.
Willis, it was just a one moment thing, and now everything's broken, or at least it seems like it is. Get over it, it's not a big deal, don't make a damn fuss about it, or you're gonna get stuck in this part of you life and never be able to move on, and besides, isn't life all about having fun?
Khalis, it wasn't even anything. It was just a thing i do to almost everyone, hi-ing and bye-ing all the time. Lester went through this, yet i don't see him avoiding me. But like i said, i DO NOT know what you're thinking, so maybe afterall, you're not avoiding me, I DO NOT KNOW :D

"But i wonder if i'll ever meet anyone like you again..."

"Its funny how a person breaks your heart, and you can still love them with all the tiny pieces."
-Stef

Oh, that was just about guys.
Friends.
I mean, my friends are like lovely, including those guys from above. If taking them out from the drama, they're really chill and like a darling to me, especially Khalis. But, i do not know. Sigh. So physics earlier on made me realise that, most friends are not forever, and right now, there are some people that i love that makes me feel like i'm afraid to lose them. Like forrealz.
:(

To my lovely Hazel,
Don't get too upset k? You have tons of friends out there for you other than "you know who", like me! I'll be here :D But some friends, are meant to be there just for hi and bye, maybe she's one of them? They go as fast as they come, maybe. So don't get too upset about it, cause you'll be the one feeling hell and she'll still be happy, oblivious to all the shit you're going through. So, buck up, you'll get over it, and there'll be people helping you :D Same ole' sentence, I'LL BUY DONUTS FOR YOU K? Haha Donuts! :D

''pretentious people are just like cross-stitches piece, pretty at the front but twisted and messed up at the back"
-Jiaqi.

Damn, i so agree to this. It's true. Sometimes, certain friends are worth you hard work, your tears, your sadness and the effort you put into this friendship.

But for certain friends, it makes your life easier the moment you decide not to care..

And damn, by easy, i mean WAY EASIER.

Friends are like roses, sweet yet you'll always have to beware of their pricks.

[End of my friendship nonsense]

So, i shall go start working on my essays and shit so i can enjoy my holidays! Sorry for not uploading many pictures recently, but i'll take pictures tomorrow, probably :D Hopefully.
Next post, shall be another fashion research for my little angelic ahma! Yini :D
Haha, wait for it manzxzx :D

Lastly, this is honestly my blog, and if you're gonna give me dog comments about Willis and Khalis, then fux off. Kthxbai.

Ciao!

2010-03-29T22:42:00.004+08:00

So guys, i'm here with my Post-it® “How You Use It” entry!
It's honestly my first time doing it, and i've spent all afternoon working on it, writing the sticky notes and creating a mess.
This was our initial product, then we decided that it's totally not awesome, cause my camera sucks and the words can't be seen, so we settled on the video to be our product.
So, guys, it's my first time, please give some constructive comments yeah :D

;Loves

Ciao!

2010-03-27T23:52:00.003+08:00

I am currently talking to Shirley Wong while blogging :D
Tonight was like any other schoolnights, such a boring saturday. Went skating, saw some super hot seniors, and definitely they noticed me, have no idea why teehee c=
But anyways, came home around 10+, usual stuff before i sit down and blog.

So so, nothing usual, but it's my Sweet Sixteen in like 2months time! AND I NEED AWESOME IDEAS!
ANYONE?! HELLO? ANYONE HAVE GOOD IDEAS?
I'm being serious, comment me on any good ideas you have that i should plan for my birthday.
Ever since i got to plan my own birthday, which was like at the age of 12, it's been like, chalets, bbqs, stayovers and the usual stuff. Pretty boring huh. Thats the why. I am in urgent need of ideas.
So, i'm pleading..
Anyone can give ideas, just leave a comment, and i'll decide and think about it :D

Thanks in advance :DCiaos!

2010-03-26T20:02:00.003+08:00

This isn't some chain letter or whatsoever, it's a short, sweet and sad story.
I teared a little when i read it.

A girl and a guy were speeding over 100 mph on a motorcycle:

Girl: Slow down. I'm scared.

Guy: No, this is fun.

Girl: No it's not. Please, it's too scary!

Guy: Then tell me you love me.

Girl: Fine, I love you. Slow down!

Guy: Now give me a BIG hug.

(Girl hugs him)

Guy: Can you take my helmet off and put it on? It's bugging me.

In the paper the next day: A motorcycle crashed into a building because of brake failure. Two people were on the motorcycle, but only one survived. The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized that his brakes broke, but he didn't want to let the girl know. Instead, he made her say she loved him, felt her hug one last time, then made her wear his helmet so she would live even though it meant he would die.

Soo... I do not know how it relates, but if you have someone you love (which i'm sure everyone does), cherish them.

2010-03-26T13:22:00.003+08:00

Great, today totally skipped school again.
Throat's still hurting, and my voice is like still gone :( I NEED MY VOICE BACK! :(

But anyways, new NN contest, the Post-it® "How You Use It" contest, i've decided to take part in it, it's my first time and it's probably gonna be like the noobest entry of all CAUSE IT'S MY FIRST TIME PEOPLE!
But it's okay, i'm still gonna try. So i'll go get some Post-it® Super Sticky Notes like later :D

Ciao!

2010-03-26T00:04:00.003+08:00

I am so damn sick, and it's not even funny :(
My voice gone, throat hurts like bitch. I'm guessing tomorrow i can't talk at all..
But anyways, i revamped my blog and decided that i'm really bored, so i did a checkup on the clothes in Germany.
Why Germany?
Cause my school's organizing a "educational" trip to Germany, educational to teachers, having fun to students ;winkwink;
Anyhoo, i realise that Germans wear really cute clothes!
AND THEN, i realise Wizard of Oz seems to be from Germany. Dorothy wears traditional German clothings!

Traditional
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Modern

I am impressed, they have a damn cute sense of fashion. Other words, unique, but dang, i like it. All the translucent shirts, fuxbeans, i'm in love with them :D
I realise, something about me is, i tend to like translucent clothes, in other words, you can kinda see through them. Maybe it's cause i have a belly piercing i'm in mad love with, but this crave begun way before i got my piercing, and it's still going on!

Yup, Germany (: Pretty cool huh.
But the place i admire most, is still New York after all :D

This, the prettiest thing ever. Even though it has a sad story behind it. I'm sure most people know what is it.

Anyways, yesterday, i found out something which really shocked me a lot, and upsetted me a lot.
Yall are in my prayers.

Ciao!

2010-03-24T19:04:00.001+08:00

To summarise this week; it was fine. There were sucky days, and there were great days, everyone has those days.

Monday, stayed home, met my girlfie for movie.
When in Rome!
It was awesome let me tell you (:
Josh Duhamel is such a cutie, i totally just found out he's married to Fergie!
Fergie is a heck of lucky girl! Haha.
So we went to The Cathay, thinking the movie was premiered there. And Ben agreed with me too.
Cabbed down, 20bux fly off. So we waited, met Ben, and realized we totally went to the wrong place. I totally referred to the right place, yet lots of people corrected me, and we ended up at the wrong place.
So we rushily went down to Cineleisure, Ben blanja-ed cab :D
I'm like in love with Rome, and the fountain of love.

Tuesday; went home during recess, was fucking sick. 39degrees.
I honestly think masks are the cause of my fever continuously rising. It was only 38 in school, i got to the clinic, they told me to put on a mask, and when i went it, my temp rose to 39.
Masks saves other people but kill the damn sick-ees.

Today, still on mc. Head and throat still hurts, kinda seeing stars, but it's okay. I think i'll be going to school tomorrow. For my babeh :D
Finished up my ss essay, everything was okay, until i received a damn message, which broke my fucking heart. It tore me apart, but in moments, i realized maybe i should just let it go, cause i'm sick of wishing miracles would happened when it totally doesn't.
Go, you're free. I'm always the one hoping miracles would happen and all shit, but apparently, i'm not sure if it's god, or cupid or whoever is in charge of love, is just making a fool out of me, twirling me round and round his damn life.
Well, whatever, i don't believe in love, and i won't. I ain't gonna put myself into everything again, maybe till someone who loves me enough to build my faith up again, i'm not gna devote my WHOLE life into it. NOWAI FUXERS.
I'M DONE WITH YOU.
MOVING ON WITH MY DAMN LIFE.

Ciaos.

2010-03-20T04:04:00.000+08:00

I HAVE A SUPER HUGE FUCKING HEADACHE AND MY NECK HAS BEEN HURTING LIKE A BEAST.

IF I'M GONNA FALL SICK, I'LL HAVE TO FALL SICK ON TUESDAY; NOT FUCKING KIDDING.

Anyways, there was a huge rain today. Seeing rain always makes me feel upset; cause it gets me thinking. All the time.

But then, i got on Audi just like Jon said. And i cpl-ed this weird guy. We might break soon, idk. See how everything goes. And since my bi's not on, i decided to do something really lame to our avatars.

So this is me and my bi's original looks. And i changed it from this

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CUTE RIGHT?! Haha i especially like the hair. Damn cute i think! Exactly like some skaterdude :D
And i created a couple outfit (: It's like my favorite thing in the mall~!
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I know it's like damn cute!
And like i did something which i haven't done in a long time ever since i lost my skills. I did cfm for 188bpm. Click to enlarge if you do not believe. And the mute Elson finally talked, to say i did a nice cfm (:

And this picture. HAH SOMETHING AMAZING OFCOURSE. Something i've never achieved in my whole audition-ing life. A 2MIL SCORE. I was playing story. Song is You, by Audition. And i hit 2Mil. How awesome is that :D
Haha well; i shall get off here.
Next post will have some awesome pictures (:

Ciaos

2010-03-17T21:44:00.000+08:00

Yesterday went to collect lens from Felicia, then met babeh around 3.15 at central area.
We didn't know where to go uh, so talk talk talk, then finally decided to go pasir ris park.
That place has so much memories!
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But it was windy when we started walking but when we got to e-hub area, i was fucking sweating like a dog! Fuck bodoh!
Apparently; i lost a bet, and i'm supposed to say i love you to someone. Have no fucking idea how i'm gonna say it! Teehee.

We got there, swing-ed for like an hour, then saw this super hot guy, we wanted to ask for his number, but he disappeared after going to toilet. I think they left teehee.
But anyways, we bus-ed to whitesands. Then went to NTUC to get our alcohol.
First this woman, and apparently she wouldn't help up. Fucker.
Then there was this guy, but he was at the opposite aisle. So i drew this imaginary line, and "fished him over" but i gave up. BABEH FAIL LA.
When she "fished" that guy over, he turned over and saw her doing it! LOSER LA! HAHAHAH.
LIKE DAMN PAISEH CAN.
Then in the end, this really hot guy got us 2cans of calrsberg! HE'S LIKE DAMN HOT CAN. REGRET NOT TAKING HIS NUMBER :(

Then we bus-ed to airport.
FUCK UH. BABEH MADE ME EAT MAC FOR ONCE IN LIKE A SO LONG TIME.
And she loves eating curry sauce, which brings back memories too! :(((((
Finished eating; trained to T3 and study.

My babeh :D SHE SUPER CUTE RIGHT? CHEH! HAHAAH.

CHEH. Act cute only teehee!
Okay, i know i look fucking fat. Stfu if you're gna call me fat :D Cause i know it myself.
HAHA MY FACE LIKE FUCKING RED RIGHT. KNOW WHY.
We slacked at T3, then drank a little, studied a little.
That's why my face so red! In picture not so obvious somemore! And it's like burning.
Drink, drank, but i ain't drunk fuckers c:
TEEHEE. Then we bus-ed back to pasir ris, and i bused home.
Stayed up watching my favorite drama till like 4.30.
I WISH HOLIDAYS WOULD LAST LONGER.
FUCK SCHOOL AND ITS MOE SYSTEM; AND CCAS TOO.
School would be awesome without CCA!
Kay peace c:
TOMORROW I'M GNA SPEND A DAY OUT WITH MOM AND SISTA ;D AWESOMEPAWSOME.

PS: I'm going gaga over the time needed to upload photos!
It would be awesome if they have like a multi-upload!

Ciao

2010-03-15T01:52:00.000+08:00

I've always thought Rome's a magical place, the name sounds pretty fab already:)
And Nuffnang's giving away tix to the movie "When in Rome" :DD

An ambitious young New Yorker (Kristen Bell), disillusioned with romance, takes a whirlwind trip to Rome where she defiantly plucks magic coins from a ‘foolish’ fountain of love, inexplicably igniting the passion of an odd group of suitors: a sausage magnate (Danny Devito), a street magician (Jon Heder), an adoring painter (Will Arnett) and a self-admiring model (Dax Shepard). But when a charming reporter (Josh Duhamel) pursues her with equal zest, how will she know if his love is the real thing?

YOU WANNA KNOW WHAT I THINK.
I THINK.....

The reporter (Josh Duhamel) is perfect for Beth. Wanna know why?

1. He's like super cute, and charming and Beth's like super pretty too! And in the trailer, Beth did something wrong with the the vase, and the reporter kinda like kicked the tray and it hit the socket, and everything went like BOOMBABIZ. So, yeah, clumsy, but cute when put together.

2. They just look cute together, while the other 3 just look like complete idiots beside her. He also seems to like her a lot.

3. Before the picking up the coin from the fountain, they already seem to have chemistry.

That's the why:)
And now, about me.
3 things i look for in partners; teehee.

1. That guy must be able to provide me with a sense of security, and if anything happens, he'll be able to stand up for me.

2. The guy should have a sense of humor, or at least be able to make me laugh and keep conversations alive, but also know when it's time to be serious.

3. Most importantly; trust and honesty.

Catch When In Rome Movie starting from 25th March 2010 and join the official Facebook and Twitter page!

2010-03-12T21:59:00.000+08:00

So like now, i'm in a super depressed mood.
Sigh.
But after reading certain someone's blog, i finally decided that i should try blogging it out, and maybe it might just make me feel better..

But due to that person still comes to my blog once in a while, i'm gonna change his name, to Alex.
No idea why Alex, but first name that came to my mind. So i shall blog calmly, without any curse words.

So, it's been years, and i've been living like a happy little princess, or at least all my friends saw the side of a happy little princess. Always known as lucky girl, and always surrounded by all my darling friends.

Ever since i'm back and school started, ever since i caught that glimpse of you, i start to doubt everything that happened these years. Every single thing that made me smile, i'm starting to think it's just a smokescreen to substitute how much i still miss you. Who knows, every guy that i've dated after you was just a substitute for you, to make me forget you, forget how much it kills without you. Alex might've been my first, but maybe that's why every relationship after Alex didn't work out right, or lasted long..

I didn't know what i did wrong, i didn't even get the chance to prove that we might work out. All it took was a sentence my cousin said, which wasn't even true. There wasn't even enough time to work everything out, or to even settle down.
You judged, and sentenced me to death, when i did no wrong and wasn't even guilty. Yet now, even after years, you're making my life hell, without even knowing.

WHY ARE GUYS ALL THE SAME.
You left me dangling there, alone, so did he...
I wasn't even explained for, no one gave me an explanation, just a lie; and i'm expected to move on. I'm not a dog, at least give me a reason, a valid reason. Not just any sentence my cousin bombarded out due to his retardedness. I might've changed, but there's no doubt my feelings have not, and the way i treat relationships haven't either. But who's gonna be there to see it all.

No one.

Every guy showed up to tear my faith for relationship, now it's broken, yet no one's willing to build it up. Maybe if i deserved it, i would say in return to myself, karma's a bitch.
But no, i didn't play any guys, i don't either, really, what have i done to deserve this.

I always thought it's my life, and i get to choose everything in my life, i'm used to choosing, and i've been given lots of choices. But no, it's a different situation, this time i wasn't even given NOTICE of, much less to say CHOICES. No choice, no chance to explain, to time to prove anything, no reason to leave me alone, yet they made a choice for me, took away my chance, and my time, fabricated a reason, which wasn't even true, hence the word fabricated.

People came to me for advices, i'm glad they do, and it's helped them. But i don't think i'm a good "advisor" I can't even follow my own advices, nor convince myself to follow it. Someone ever said i must've been someone who's really strong to be giving good advices. I beg to differ, cause no one ever knew that i really needed that someone. Yes, that someone; the point of this post; Alex.
I think, at this moment, all it's gonna take is just a little push, and i'll fall, bad.

I'm really upset.. yes i am. If anyone was to ask if i'm okay, no i'm not. But oh well, no one cares.
Everyone cares about having fun, everyone thinks my life's perfect, yet no one talks to me emotionally. No one ever thought there's this time of my life which isn't fun at all, it's like hell, and that my life's not perfect, i do not have all the fun and all the friends in the world. No one has ever thought that my friends that i loved most and had the most fun with changed and left.

Nope, my life is perfect, why yes it is... Oh so perfect.
Cause i have all the freedom in the world. My mum's so cool that i can tell her everything, so nice that i can stay out all the time. Just cause of that, my life's great.

I'm judged.

2010-03-10T17:55:00.001+08:00

KAY BEETCHES.
I got my comment widget, FINALLY.
So leave me comments ;D
At the end of each posts (:
TEEHEE.

ANDAND OMG, THERE'S A TAYLOR SWIFT CONCERT IN DALLAS.
FUCK.
D;

2010-03-09T22:05:00.000+08:00

那一扇车门
Na yi shan che men

关出我们的裂痕
Guan chu wo men de lie hen

一声就震断了回头的路程
Yi sheng jiu zhen duan le hui tou de lu cheng

爱无法均分
Ai wu fa jun fen

以后就留给你们
Yi hou jiu liu gei ni men

也许用伤害结束爱才更动人
Ye xu yong shang hai jie shu, ai cai geng dong ren

* 容忍的人其实并不笨
*Rong ren de ren qi shi bing bu ben

只是宁可对自己残忍
Zhi shi ning ge dui zi ji can ren

既然爱不能恒温
Ji ren ai bu neng heng wen

祝福就给你下一个人
Zhu fu jiu gei ni xia yi ge ren

** 你是好人也是个坏人
** Ni shi hao ren, ye shi ge huai ren

对我坦承只为了朝他狂奔
Dui wo tan cheng, zhi wei le chao ta kuang ben

不能放任所以放了
Bu neng fang ren, suo yi fang le

这点痛我还能忍
Zhe dian tong wo hai neng ren

我是好人也是个坏人
Wo shi hao ren ye shi ge huai ren

分得够狠你才有借口转身
Fen de gou hen, ni cai you jie kou zhuan shen

宁愿爱一点不剩
Ning yuan ai yi dian bu sheng

也不忍看恋人爱成路人
Ye bu ren, kan lian ren ai cheng lu ren

Repeat *,**

三个人从不对等
San ge ren cong bu dui deng

总有个人必须牺牲
Zong you ge ren bi xu xi sheng

那永恒就等他带你完成
Na yong heng, jiu deng ta dai ni wan cheng

Repeat **

宁愿爱一点不剩
Ning yuan ai yi dian bu sheng

也不忍看恋人爱成路人
Ye bu ren, kan lian ren ai cheng lu ren

2010-03-04T17:27:00.000+08:00

I'm like super sorry for not updating my blog in such a long time!
Totally have no idea what i'm busy with though! It's just like i'm super busy!

Tuesday was chinese oral, and i probably screwed it up cause i was literally talking crap to the teacher! Like really! HAHHAHAA
Then after oral, slacked with Derick and my new friend, Joseph for like an hour while waiting for Lester and Darren.
Once they came down, we headed to Safra. Actually wanted to pool, but we were in uniform! :( So we ended up bowling. Damn fun!
Loser had to treat to 2games of pool. So i ended up treating them all D:

Lester picking a bowling ball. Teehee

Darren in action.

All the colourful balls just make me feel so much happier! Esp the purple one!

Scores. Darren was the final champion haha. PRO

Lester's first time playing pool!
He like damn cute can! He doesn't know how to shoot properly, and like the way he shoots is damn cute i swear! HAHAHAH
Left around 6:45, i lazy take bus home, so cabbed home. Tired. Showered, watched tv and sleep.

Wednesday was english oral. Even more screwed manzxzx! The teacher asked me who do i think she's thinking, and i said i don't know!
I know, wtf right! HAHAHHAA
After oral, Jolene followed me home to change, then met Fatirah and Janna, and we all headed to FEP. AND GUESS WHAT HAPPENED!

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Yup, i got my bellybutton/naval/barleybutton pierced! Btw. Ignore the fats!
Damn pain i tell you! LIKE FUCKING PAIN. THE PART WHERE THEY SAID THE CLAMP MAKES IT NUMB SO YOU DON'T FEEL THE PAIN, I'll tell you the truth, IT'S A FUCKING LIE. I feel like something pierce through already, and someone left the needle dangling in my flesh, that's the kinda pain you'll feel.

But i'm pretty scared of pain, so it might be peanuts for you la hahaha.
So yeah, i pretty much felt pain the whole evening, even when i went to meet Wills and them.
And before, i was like damn scared la! OH THERE'S A VIDEO. I'LL UPLOAD IT SOON.

After that, i left Fatirah, Jolene and Janna, i pia down in cab to pasir ris to meet Kai zhi, Willis and Jeremy, and end up that dick kid also there. Dickson or something la.
Like fuck la, got there also no mood to play...
FUCK BODOH.
Then left arnd 8.
THE CAB FARE WAS A FULL FUCKING 25BUX, SCAM SIA.
BTW, if i put my fingers in between the top and bottom ball, i can feel like a metal inside, scary huh! HAHHAHA

Following post, dedicated to Tanzhihui:
My bgf/babeh, you're loved by me, so there's no need to smoke a lot and drink. You can always confide in me cause i'll be there for you (if i'm awake :D) It's not worth it over those assholes, like really. You're just gonna kill yourself, but it's not gonna hurt them a single bit, because if it does, they would've already shown concern.
Let the past be the past, move on, i've told this to lots of people, there's definitely someone out there made just perfectly for you, to fit you.
And there's this quote i learnt from my other half in America, i'll intro if got chance.
"People change so you can learn to let go.Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they are right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself. And sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."
It applies. But then again, if you can't let go and forget, then don't. Keep it inside you, cause its all the memories you have that make you unique, but don't let those memories kill you again and again. And parents, really, a good talk helps :D
Okay, i'll end this here, cause i'm really falling asleep.

PS: I love Tanzhihui ttm, more than Nicholas Yuan!

Ciao!

2010-02-26T23:27:00.000+08:00

I'M GONNA GO GET A HAIRCUT TOMORROW, AGAIN. TEEHEEEEEEEE.
GONNA GET REALLY REALLY THIN BANGS.
HOPE IT DOESN'T GET SCREWED UP.

I'll give a better update after i get my piercing :D
ANDAND TAN ZHI HUI WILL BE INCLUDED ;D

2010-02-23T19:49:00.000+08:00

I'm pretty sure everyone has read Alice In Wonderland, whether as bedtime story or just for fantasy, i'm sure you all know the story very well.
And just so happens, Nuffnang will be giving out tickets to the gala premier, so i am mad loving it :D
Talking about my favourite character, hmmm... what would Alice in Wonderland be without the super cute dormouse, Mallymkun!
There isn't really a reason why i'm in love with her, maybe cause she's a white mouse! Heh :D ANDAND her super adorableness is enough to make me fall in love with her!

PS: I like guys hahah!

MALLYMKUN, THE DORMOUSE (voice of Barbara Windsor) is a swashbuckling mouse in Underland who wears riding breeches. She refuses to believe that the White Rabbit has found the right Alice, the one who can help return Underland to its true splendor, and is only too happy to poke poor Alice in the ankle with a hat pin when Alice insists she’s only dreaming. But the tough little mouse comes through in a pinch when Alice is threatened by a clawing creature called a Bandersnatch. Her loyalty to the Hatter is unmatched, and she willingly faces the prospect of death to stand by him.

Andand catch the exciting trailer:

Catch Alice in Wonderland Movie starting from 4th March 2010 and join the official Facebook and Twitter page!

2010-02-22T23:33:00.000+08:00

SOOOOO,

I FIND IT REALLY DISGUSTING, IN CLASS, WHENEVER I TURN OVER, I'D HAPPEN TO SEE YINGJIE STARING, AND IT DISGUSTS ME TO LOWEST LEVEL POSSIBLE.
"Ignorance is bliss"- DarrenW.
HAHAA So damn true can!

And yeah, stop poking into who my friends are, I HAVE A LIFE FUCKER.
I really do....my life doesn't belong to you...cb.
Anyways, school was crap today. Was in a shitty mood, but after school, went to practice guitar with DarrenW and that totally cheered me up.
ANDAND on the way home, i say Pohjinghui! So damn long haven't seen her, so happy to see her la! And we talked like mad lot.
And i like how there were guys from siglap eavesdropping on us heh.
Okayokay, so i'm gonna go sleep.
Ciao

2010-02-22T06:17:00.000+08:00

Sooo..

OMGOMGOMG MY DAD'S GOING OVERSEAS FOR 2MONTHS D;

Who's gonna drive me to school?! :(
I gotta squeeze into 17 with all the fucking SACS people :((((((
Sadsad faceeee!

Sucks :|

2010-02-20T01:43:00.000+08:00

Now waiting to watch 珠光寶氣; missed the 9pm one cause i was taking a nap heh. So damn tired la, today went to play basketball with the dudes, Derick, Lester, Willis and Kai Zhi.
Shoot some hoops, and i realised my skills deproved manzxzx!
I'm like so bad at basketball now, and everytime i shoot a 3pointer or half hoop, it feels like i flunked out all my body parts :(

Slacked till like 5. But Derick and Lester went off early cause of church service, so we played with this Cliff dude and some other guy la.
Me and Willis had this little talk. Pretty good.
Then went 7-11, west plaza, then headed home.
For once in this whole month, i finally felt the feeling of happiness coming back to me. Not that kind of happiness that someone loves you, but the happiness in the sense that i can laugh at every single thing.
At least, someone understands.
This whole month has been killing me, emotionally, then physically, it's just torture.
Hope it stops right here. I know i wanna leave this pain, but then again, i don't wanna wash you out.
Ugh. I shall stop thinking about it!
OMGOMG POA WAS CRAZY TODAY. COMBINING ALL 3 CHAPTERS MADE THE WHOLE CLASS CRAZY.
I totally just attempted qns2, and it was insane! The amounts do NOT tally at all! I was like shooting questions at my mommy, and all she could hear was screaming! HAHAAH
That totally shows how crazy it is heh.
I shall go watch my show, then sleep :)
Ciao

2010-02-18T18:34:00.000+08:00

New Year 4days wkend:

Saturday, didn't do much, went for reunion dinner.
Sunday, relatives came, then went over to my dad's side aunt's house. Ang paos came swarming in from them manzxzx! But there was this really old guy, who totally gave my sister one, and did not give me one, just cause he's never seen me before(!) Wtfff right! Then arnd 9plus went home, then went to pasir ris to slack with Felicia, had one can of Carlsberg, then went home around 12:30

Monday, went to bai nian, was supposed to play mahjong, but unexpectedly went off around 7+ to slack with Felicia. Then Ivan and his 2 friends came arnd 8+
Played poker, won some cash (!) Notes somemore :D
Tuesday, went for steamboat, then mahjong, then this really expensive restaurant for dinner, sadly, they serve pretty crappy food :( Oh well.

Valentines day this year isn't worth mentioning, there's no meaning whatsoever :(

Back to school, then went to play guitar with Yiting and Darren. Learnt like few other songs :D
Darren's like my shifu alr heh.

Now you want me to forget every little thing you said...how did you manage to do that.
Few years, and it still lingers in my mind like it's yesterday.
This whole thing is such a big illusion, maybe i should just give up loving, maybe i should just let it go.
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But i'm not willing to let it go like that, I need you, this relationship is one thing i treasure a lot and miss a lot... Really...
It's been hell ever since i started missing you, every little second without you is killing me, why.
Why is my life always full of confusion? Why do i choose to walk down the painful road, and remember all the memories.....than to let it go!
UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

2010-02-17T06:38:00.000+08:00

OMG, I WANT A SONY WALKMAN PHONE.

STUPID HUH SINCE I HAVE A BB.
BUT EVERYONE'S CARRYING THE WALKMAN PHONE, ANDAND THERE'S PINK.
D:

2010-02-11T00:06:00.000+08:00

I have like a whole bunch of random pictures Yini took at Sakae, but i'm extremely lazy to post them now, sowwy! D:
Common test week seh, but i'm actually kinda confident in passing my physics and chinese test, but my maths, fucked manzxzx.
My greatest fear = maths.
Chinese, took test the whole period.
I don't get why do teachers think i'm trying to cheat whenever i look around, i mean that totally helps keep me awake ._. They think too much.
Fuck the teachers.

I think Willis is goodlooking. Random, but yeah.
No big deal, compared to my obsession over Austin last year, saying he's cute is nothing heh.
Humanities, slacked downstairs, some sec5s came and talk to me.
Then this kpo discipline committee guy saw me, then i think ask another teacher come deal with me (Which i think is Nathan).
So i smart, i run first.
HAHAHA!
Smart right? Cheh!

Then maths. Revision.
I'm surprised i actually completed my work with Ryan, yes, Ryan Tan.
Cannot believe it huh. And he's actually smarter than me! Even more cannot believe it seh!
After finishing work, he "brought" me into the world of screamo. Sometimes i really think he's a legend for being able to understand what the fuck they're "singing" :]
English, did journal writing.
Darren and Ryan bastards! Sweep the trash into other class's balcony! Cb luh!
HAHAH! But smart. Lunch, i feel guilty eating lol.
Was supposed to skip :(

Poa, it was fine. Physics, test was pretty similar to the pre-test. Lame luh.
Same thing happened, i look around and held my paper up to stretch, teacher think i'm cheating.
Once again, fuck the teachers, don't think so much :(

After school, went home, then went Tampines with mommy.
First, went to buy jewelry, there alr spent 1000++
Then went popular to buy stationary.
So to thank mommy for the jewelry, i treat her to pastamania.
I so nice right! Cheh! HAHA
$40 gone sia :(
But oh well, it's the thought that counts.
Then went home luh. Quite tiring, but whatever luh.
At least i got my blings for CNY :D

PS: I extended my first earhole, now can fit 3sticks :DDDD
Somemore extend myself de! Teehee ;D
Kay, imma go sleep.

Ciao.

2010-02-07T23:37:00.000+08:00

School has only started for 5 weeks, and i'm totally in love with my classmates.
Actually right, i'm starting to enjoy mother tongue since there's Hazel, Yini and Derick.
Butbut i'm starting to think i've turned a little from bad to worst.
Or i'm just turning out like all my cousins perhaps?
I honestly do not know, but it's totally not like i'm doing something bad outside.
I don't get it.
All the chiding i get, the yellings i get, the negligence i get, and you're expecting me to go home.
Fuck you.
I'd probably have to be retarded to do that.
No one's perfect, there's no one that falls into the cleanest state, the superwoman state.
You can stay angry at me for the whole of 2 years i'm gonna be here, I don't give a shitty fuck anymore.
Whatever.
All i'm hoping is to move outta this place, as soon as possible.
So i don't have to take all of your shit.
My room gets to be as messy as it can be, with my guitar and clothes lying around.
I FUCKING ENJOY THAT.
But unless that happens, anywhere else shall be my home.
Stress is building up =x
School, social, family.
Especially maths.
I totally do not understand what the fuck is going on in maths, and the teacher just wouldn't slow down no matter what.
Yet she gets mad and said we're not paying attention.
SO WHAT IF YOU'RE SMART, NOT EVERYONE IS AS SMART AS YOU. CHEEPOK.
You might think it's fun studying 24/7.
Well, that's you, with no life.
NOT EVERYONE ELSE.
Whatever.

Baby, what has become of us.
Is it still like before, me and you forever, or has it became you and her forever?
Why do i miss you at random moments?
And wish you were here at certain moments?
Dilemma...
You're the sweetest.

Ciao

2010-02-06T00:50:00.000+08:00

Heh I know i've been neglecting my blog a lot! I feel so bad :(
Today after school, went sakae with Yini and Hazel, food was amazing, and so was camwhoring.
But the service, TOTAL SHIT KAY. Some cheenapiang damn bu shuang us, then slammed down the plates and the order menu thingy, i'm like eh, wtfffff.
Oh well oh well, i like that picture of me and Yini in uniform! She is such an innocent girl!
She's my angelic ah ma, also known as TOOTHFAIRY xD
Ideekay, but she wants to be called toothfairy, heh cutee.

Then walked to central, and met Darren arnd 3+, slacked under void deck and played guitar, i left arnd 6+. We talked lots luh! About 2012, then about all our exs and everything. It's damn cool!

Updateeees!
Social life, recently, i've been going out a lot. After school, lunch then slack and stuff, there would be guitar days, where we would slack under the void deck with Darren and some other people, and of course, my favorite Sagiko Coconut Juice; loves!
Or sometimes, would go night cycling, or go city/town area with friends to shop!

School, i've been kinda stressed but not in that "OMG THIS IS SO HARD I'M ABOUT TO DIE" way. But like, "Shit, i wasn't paying attention, how the fuck am i supposed to do this" way.
Cause like i'm so easily distracted, and i sit with the bunch who doesn't really pay attention, so i guess, gradually, i got sucked in.
My recent test was shit, TOTAL PIECE OF SHIT. I got 0/30 xD I DID STUDY THOUGH OHKAY. Butbut the moment i flipped through the test papers, i'm like Shit....i forgot everything :( Damn sad luh! So yeahyeah, i need to catch up on everything, since CAs are next weeeeek! THEN CNY, OMG SO DAMN EXCITED! ;D

Family, FUCK MY LIFE. DON'T EVEN TALK ABOUT IT, NO ONE CARES. KAYTHXBAI.

Soso, something interesting, my class and 4T had this "gang talk" RIGHT OUTSIDE our school, who does it near school?! REALLY. HAHAHA Then, i think the cops were involved too, Ryan, Rafie, Rinaldi, Willis, Ali, Kai Zhi, YingJie, Bryan, Moses and these few other kids were involved. THERE WERE LIKE OVER 50PEOPLE. F
reaking Rinaldi called a bunch of Greenview-ers, and they called another bunch which called another bugger bunch! LOL I think siglap people were involved too. I totally like how Ryan said it could just be a huge BBQ party, damn funny xD But i think he's damn yuan wang, was supposed to go for soccer meeting, but somehow ended up going with them and getting in trouble, he should've just gone for the meet, and he would be safe! So yeah, in the end all kenna police case, or well, the serious ones.
I guess it was cause it involved other schools too...
Well, i hope some of them are fine though :D

OH AND SO TODAY, WHEN I GOT HOME....
i rushed down to buy ice cream, and like i was holding 2bags of them, and this kind NS kid was kind enough to hold the lift for me. THE POINT IS HE IS DAMN CUTE. But then, he suddenly asked "Are you okay?" And without thinking, i replied "Yeah"
THEN I GAVE HIM THE "I KNOW YOU?!" STARE!
And i was like "SHIT, WHAT IF HE WAS TALKING ON THE PHONE AND I REPLIED, SHIT UNGLAM AND EMBARRASSING!"
But then he was damn cute!
KAY END OF STORY.

Kaykaykay, i'm gonna go to bed. I have pictures from today though, but lazy to find my BB cable xD So shall label them as expired pictures next time i blog :D

PS: NBCB, YOU WERE THE ONE WHO SCREWED MY LIFE UP KAY, AND NOW YOU'RE TALKING. GTFO =x ANDAND EFFYOUEVERYMUCH
LOVE,
JERLYN.

JiaJun:
Sorry, i really need some time away from you. I have a life, i have other friends. I can't stop my world from revolving around others just cause you chose to revolve around me. It doesn't work out that way...it just doesn't...
Maybe some people are right, we can't be bffs like that, you don't understand me as well as my true bff. You don't get into situations i'm in, like how my bff is always getting into MY situation. It takes time, more time than you ever imagine, more fate than you ever thought you'd need, and more trouble than you'd want to. Fernando; loves

KAYKAYKAY LIFE STILL GOES ON NO MATTER WHAT.
Bedtime, after the depressing talk with Pinky!
Ciao!

2010-01-30T13:02:00.000+08:00

A short post, since i'm about to go out and do something.

This week was pretty fun, all the slacking and the craps!
Hahaha ytd went out to slack with Darren and Jia Jun till like 11+, damn fun!
Except we in school uni D: Or Amos could've got us some vodka :(
Butbut, anyways, it was fun (:
And today, bugis with Jia Jun, Felicia and her beau :D
Funfun. Hopefully, i'm able to get new clothes <3

Ciao

2010-01-26T06:12:00.000+08:00

Cranky mood again! Since i didn't have enough sleep and fucking cca is getting the better of me!
But i came across this story, that kinda cheered me up!

One night, the moon said to me, "If he makes you cry, why don't you leave him...?"
There was a long silent pause, and then i looked up and asked back "Moon, would you ever leave your sky...?"

Isn't that just cute? And sad?
Oh here's one more (:

If you look inside a girl, you would see how much she really cries, you'll find lots of secrets and lies but what you'll see the most is how hard it is to stay strong when nothing is right and everything is wrong. It doesn't matter anymore because everything happens for a reason, tears will eventually fade, and one day, everything will be exactly how it's supposed to be. Moving on is a process you have to promise yourself that you're really ready to let go. Don't you love how every word is about that one guy, yet he never knows that it's him.

Cute yeah? I think it's really really cute, but somehow sad!
Is it true, that EVERY girl has had that much tears? Why do some seem happier than other.

Well, time for escuela. Quoted from Fernando :D Since i do not know much spanish!

2010-01-25T19:41:00.000+08:00

Webcamming with Fernando :D

Happened like a long time back, probably like a month or so.
But i decided to still blog about it, since i thought it was really interesting and fun.
We had this heart to heart talk, and this coming to Singapore talk.
I love this best friend of minee (:

Me and my new guitar! A guitar that i'm actually learning how to play. Damn fine huh? (:
Kay well, ignore my face, since i didnt have any makeup on when i took this pic, and i obviously do not have my lens on.

Anna Nucci sandals. Total cuteness yeah? :D

My outing with Yiting. We were like being funky and messing around with the hats in F21.
OMGOMGOMG I'M LIKE SUPER IN LOVE WITH THIS DRESS CAUSE IT LOOKS SO DAMN CUTE D; But apparently i'm not getting it since they only have one piece!

Super awesome shorts, but no S D:

THIS DRESS TOO! SUPER AWESOME. BUT SMALL WOULDN'T FIT ME! IT'S TOO HUGE FOR ME D;

DEPRESS!
I only got that one pair of Anna Nucci's shoes! It's okay, i'm going there again (:

You've seen me laugh out loud, you've seen me giggle in delight and you've seen me smile. But have you seen that one teardrop that fell out from the corner of my eye...?
I don't think so..
Have you ever though maybe it's not as simple as you think it is? Without yall, how do you expect me to go on, like i ever did before...? It's impossible.
I'm about to break down, you were once my life and i was once your oxygen mask. But now that we're at 2 different places, why does it seem like you do no need an oxygen mask anymore...? Maybe you ARE right, it's time to move on, move on far and fast. If you think i should, then maybe i will... but you were the one who made that choice...

Ciao

2010-01-25T06:15:00.000+08:00

Remember all the things we wanted?
Now all the memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

Even with our fists held high, yeah
Never would've worked out right, yeah
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hurt you
Now I can't stop

I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go

And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you wanna cry

Started with a perfect kiss then
We could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive

You know that I love you
So I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go

And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone
I'm already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong

I'm already gone
Already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone

(Already gone)
(Already gone)
(Already gone)

Already gone
Already gone
Already gone, yeah

Remember all the things we wanted?
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go

And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone
Already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong

I'm already gone
Already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone

This song makes me wanna cry, i do not know why :|

Ciao

2010-01-22T05:14:00.000+08:00

Hmm, so recently school has been pretty hectic.
Not as in like loads of homework, but like when i get home, i'm soooooooo tired that i'd take a nap and do not get enough time for myseeeeelf!

Secondly, i realise i have really really bad friends. Or should we just say typical singaporean? No offence.
It really pisses me off when my best friend's dad thinks that it's a waste of time for us to go to school together. He just hates me.
Why not just tell me, it's a waste of time to be friends with me? Fugger :(

Thirdly, i need a boy best friend to talk to, a boy from Singapore that's willing to spend time talking and listening to me, bad!
Damn shag yeah! D:

About my class, i still think it's amazing, but the class i dislike most is probably Mother Tongue, since i'm seperated from my class, that makes it so much boring-er!

Forthly, IT'S YOUR FUGGING MOUTH, BE RESPONSIBLE FOR WHAT COMES OUT OF IT. I respect promises, they're one thing i respect a lot. And yet people always fail to do it, and of course, break promises with me. If promises are something you could just break, and walk away, then there wouldn't be a phrase called "Promises are promises..." Every promise broken just took away my trust from you, bit by bit...
FUCKYOU.

Friends, afterall, it's just nothing but a shallow pool of people. This sucks.
I'm getting to know more about Jeremy and Yi Ting. And in school, i'm involved in this break up thingy between my friend and a girl i don't know, WHEN I DID NOT EVEN DO A FUCKING SINGLE THING.
SINGAPOREANS, CAN YOU PLEASE WISEN UP AND GET THE FACTS CLEAR BEFORE YOU BE HATIN ON PEOPLE. I DID NOT FUCKING MISTAKE, I really did not do anything....
This is the most frustrating week of the beginning of year 2010.

Fine, don't understand me, i do not need to be understood. It's whatever..
I'm too tired to carry on with this bullshit :(

I miss Linsey, and Fernando, and Pinky! I miss all the heart to heart talks! :(
People who say i'm lucky are honestly the people who do not know what i'm going through! REALLY!

Okaaaaay, i'm about to start crying with all these! I'll blog again, and with pictures soon, those expired pictures! I don't wanna go to school with puffy eyes! :(

Ciao

2010-01-18T18:36:00.000+08:00

So.............

I NEED TO START BLOGGING A LOT MAN D:

Class has been fun, with all the people around me :D
Rinaldi, the 2 Darrens, Ryan, Dino, Jeremy, Rafie, Arif and etc. They've all been a darling to me, honestly, except for this hoee, but i ain't gonna mention his name. Whateverrr!

Sosososo, today, i told Darren i would blog about it, the 2 biggest joke of my life that made me laugh like 9382798237hours!

I totally misheard Darren said POA as POE.
It might not sound funny like that, but honestly, if you were there, it's priceless! HAHAHA
Andandand, Darren totally asked me what was an ip address.
Classic huh?! HAHAHAA

I secretly like my class alot.
Jeremy with his porn thingy.
Ryan and Rinaldi messing around.
Dino the smart one.
DAMN CLASSIC.
Shit, i think i'm in love with this class, esp during slack period(!)
And like Yi Ting and her group of friends were a sweetheart to me too <3333
Uuber loves lah!
I promise i'll blog more soon!

Ciao!